stagnant
Right now, I'm a pail of water with virus infected mosquitos flying around me .. so damn stagnant... I'm not doing a damn thing, every day i wake up and i just take kayla to school go home do my hair or fall asleep again... go to work with the same shit, get off work go hang out with trev go home go to sleep then wake up and it s all the same shit. and even in that small routine of my daily life there's always something scraping at my head. No matter what I could wake up in a great mood something is going to happen that fucks it all up regardless of any good in the day . I'm so tired... I'm not going anywhere I'm not doing anything .. I'm not growing at all and it's hard I don't have a clue as to who i am or what i want. I'm so melancholy over all this shit. If it's not one thing it's another and everything I try makes it all worse. I keep failing at the things I work the most for and want the most. I'm stuck in a rut. Things with Trev are shaky... Work is changing so much right now relay just got sold and even though i'll still have my job i dont know what else is going to happen. people are moving and things are changing and i m just standing still. I need to do something in my life... get back in art... writing... something of value to my life... something to stimulate me and give me a release or else I'm going to explode while standing in the middle of nowhere... Alright enough pessimism and rambling Im tired and hungry so I'll write more later. I hope everyone is doing great and You are all very happy Ya'll deserve it. smile everyone the world needs it. Love you all,
-*-Angie-*_
-*-Angie-*_