2007
it is said that a new year is supposed to give you a fresh start, a new beginning, an "au revoir" to the past, so long,, farewell to old bad habits, hellooooo lessons learned, let a new journey begin....ah, you get the picture....i guess im just hoping that the "people" who say this are not completely out of their minds...(much like i feel)
i dont know whether to be optimistic or realistic....and to be honest,, im not quite sure i know the difference at this point...
i mean,, lets face it...2006 for me wasn't THAT much different from 2005, sure there were ups to it, but mostly just the same movie on repeat with different faces, with same ol' me casting the same ol' shadow...sad isn't it?!?!? It makes me look back and question why the hell if i had the remote control the entire time did i not get enough! seriously. do i always have to hit rock bottom before i start to see the light....?!?!? bla. with that said,, i suppose it is "catchy" to suggest that we ever really get a clean start....although i'd like one....about as much as i'd like to get this piece of lettuce out that's stuck in my tooth (from my very healthy lunch i've resoluted to eat more of)...so yeah, i want a new beginning.....BAD! this time next year i want to be able to look back and say that it was all worth it,, good or bad. i want to stop "pep talking" myself and just freakin' do it, be a better me, all the way around. including, but not limited to:
1. being honest with everyone, about everything!, no matter how much Im worried who will hate me or talk useless garbage, or who's feelings i might hurt. (goddess knows 2006 wasn't the year for sparing me any joy)
2. eat healthier, drink more water, ride my new kick ass bike alot...(you know, rid myself of the beer jiggles ive created),, which brings up the next one;
3. DRINK LESS BEER! (duh, and i have been doing better) face reality instead of trying to numb it....yeah
4. Be alone more often....challenge myself to a movie, or coffee, or the park...just me and my journal!
5. start guitar lessons OR something crafty
6. stay focused at work (this one is by far the hardest, as you can see)
7. SAVE MONEY,, just because i should....lol
8. go see my nana more (and tell her i love her and give her some of my saved money)
9. TRAVEL (with more of my saved money...haha, peru, washington d.c., new york, texas to visit the sis, or somewhere tranquil i havn't been)
10.& of course, very importantly, TAKE MORE PHOTOS (with my new tripod) and test my abilities.... ;-)
yeah, thats a great list to start! LOL>! baby steps, baby steps......
i could probably go on forever....but for now im going to start with #6 ;-) before i get fired and there is no money to save!
xoxoxoxo!
i dont know whether to be optimistic or realistic....and to be honest,, im not quite sure i know the difference at this point...
i mean,, lets face it...2006 for me wasn't THAT much different from 2005, sure there were ups to it, but mostly just the same movie on repeat with different faces, with same ol' me casting the same ol' shadow...sad isn't it?!?!? It makes me look back and question why the hell if i had the remote control the entire time did i not get enough! seriously. do i always have to hit rock bottom before i start to see the light....?!?!? bla. with that said,, i suppose it is "catchy" to suggest that we ever really get a clean start....although i'd like one....about as much as i'd like to get this piece of lettuce out that's stuck in my tooth (from my very healthy lunch i've resoluted to eat more of)...so yeah, i want a new beginning.....BAD! this time next year i want to be able to look back and say that it was all worth it,, good or bad. i want to stop "pep talking" myself and just freakin' do it, be a better me, all the way around. including, but not limited to:
1. being honest with everyone, about everything!, no matter how much Im worried who will hate me or talk useless garbage, or who's feelings i might hurt. (goddess knows 2006 wasn't the year for sparing me any joy)
2. eat healthier, drink more water, ride my new kick ass bike alot...(you know, rid myself of the beer jiggles ive created),, which brings up the next one;
3. DRINK LESS BEER! (duh, and i have been doing better) face reality instead of trying to numb it....yeah
4. Be alone more often....challenge myself to a movie, or coffee, or the park...just me and my journal!
5. start guitar lessons OR something crafty
6. stay focused at work (this one is by far the hardest, as you can see)
7. SAVE MONEY,, just because i should....lol
8. go see my nana more (and tell her i love her and give her some of my saved money)
9. TRAVEL (with more of my saved money...haha, peru, washington d.c., new york, texas to visit the sis, or somewhere tranquil i havn't been)
10.& of course, very importantly, TAKE MORE PHOTOS (with my new tripod) and test my abilities.... ;-)
yeah, thats a great list to start! LOL>! baby steps, baby steps......
i could probably go on forever....but for now im going to start with #6 ;-) before i get fired and there is no money to save!
xoxoxoxo!