scale of life....
if life was one of those scales with two sides and i was standing on one side, with the weight of the world's trials and tribulations on the other side, i would definetaly have flew off the edge, ALONG time ago!
Things sometimes seem to never weigh out. How is one supposed to be able to balance so many things and move forward in life with so many expectations being placed at our feet, thereby creating a gigantic barge of "haha, you'll never get past me" moments? Even our own subconcious expectations stop us in our tracks when we think we've finally accomplished the goals we set out for in each particular situation...but nope, WHAM! not good enough.
i swear if i wasn't such a sissy, i'd stand up and slap the universe in its face for coming up with these unrealistic goals. O.k. wait, so its not the universe, its the people IN the universe, those who preach the "right wing" way of life, or your everyday "logical thinkers", pushing logic in your face that you could really give a crap about when your dealing with all this fucking stress. Who has time to think logically or follow the right path or take time to breath for that matter. Get off my back, seriously, go to your "higher than thou" corner and resite your own boring logic, and let me live my life accordingly to how it makes me happy. (even if i am royally screwing it up step by step.)
OH, and dont get me wrong, i dont think EVERYONE is this way, not everyone is a complete jack-ass! we all have our moments. (mine included), ::sigh:: I just feel like i needed to vent and get that out.
on a lighter note, i've been in a really good place lately. I've made some "inner" and outer changes and i feel good. can you tell....LOL
no, seriously.....As my ears have stretched increasingly larger, so have my goals, as my hair color has changed, so has my way of thinking, and as my hair keeps growing, i realize i am too......
(im sure the book im ALMOST finished with has alot to do with it), the Celestine Prophecy.....uh huh! it rocks.
ok. im done. :-D
Things sometimes seem to never weigh out. How is one supposed to be able to balance so many things and move forward in life with so many expectations being placed at our feet, thereby creating a gigantic barge of "haha, you'll never get past me" moments? Even our own subconcious expectations stop us in our tracks when we think we've finally accomplished the goals we set out for in each particular situation...but nope, WHAM! not good enough.
i swear if i wasn't such a sissy, i'd stand up and slap the universe in its face for coming up with these unrealistic goals. O.k. wait, so its not the universe, its the people IN the universe, those who preach the "right wing" way of life, or your everyday "logical thinkers", pushing logic in your face that you could really give a crap about when your dealing with all this fucking stress. Who has time to think logically or follow the right path or take time to breath for that matter. Get off my back, seriously, go to your "higher than thou" corner and resite your own boring logic, and let me live my life accordingly to how it makes me happy. (even if i am royally screwing it up step by step.)
OH, and dont get me wrong, i dont think EVERYONE is this way, not everyone is a complete jack-ass! we all have our moments. (mine included), ::sigh:: I just feel like i needed to vent and get that out.
on a lighter note, i've been in a really good place lately. I've made some "inner" and outer changes and i feel good. can you tell....LOL
no, seriously.....As my ears have stretched increasingly larger, so have my goals, as my hair color has changed, so has my way of thinking, and as my hair keeps growing, i realize i am too......
(im sure the book im ALMOST finished with has alot to do with it), the Celestine Prophecy.....uh huh! it rocks.
ok. im done. :-D