heat,, ugh...
As i sit and drip with sweat in my office where the air condition is broken,, yet again....my mind drifts off to focus on words from someone non-other than my escape and release herself....P!nk (did i mention i will be seeing her in 6 days...woot woot)
"temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife, cause im always watching for someone to show their darker side....."
this fits me,,....perfectly. perhaps this simple fact is cause for reason why i have acted out in the ways i have, or perhaps this is my freedom of a long awaited question.
why is it that its always temporary, happiness that is....for me?!? do i seek temporarity because im temporarily...shall we say,, damaged?!?! misunderstood maybe...?!?! fearful?!?!
maybe its all an illusion....everyone else's dark side. maybe,, just maybe...im so concerned about seeing theirs so that i dont feel so alone with my own....
"so maybe ill sit back and just enjoy all this for now..., watch it all play out,, see if you really stick around....
if everything is just a lie....i wont be leaving here alive....."
"temporary happiness is like waiting for the knife, cause im always watching for someone to show their darker side....."
this fits me,,....perfectly. perhaps this simple fact is cause for reason why i have acted out in the ways i have, or perhaps this is my freedom of a long awaited question.
why is it that its always temporary, happiness that is....for me?!? do i seek temporarity because im temporarily...shall we say,, damaged?!?! misunderstood maybe...?!?! fearful?!?!
maybe its all an illusion....everyone else's dark side. maybe,, just maybe...im so concerned about seeing theirs so that i dont feel so alone with my own....
"so maybe ill sit back and just enjoy all this for now..., watch it all play out,, see if you really stick around....
if everything is just a lie....i wont be leaving here alive....."