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° 04/01 ∴ Log ◄| Maintenance
❝ Find somethin' to trap yourself in, maybe.❞ ❝ You?❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ Think I could? Cage ya. Even with my blood all thinned out.❞ ❝ Yeah.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 04/02 ∴ MODE OF CONTACT
❝ S'at what it feels like? "Loss", I mean.❞ ❝ Yeah. Yeah, that's...❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ S'weird keepin' secrets from you.❞ ❝ First time I ever heard that one.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ ♪ Oooh, I wanna take ya to Bermuda, Bahamas -- c'mon, pretty mama... ♪ ❞ ↘ Genkaku
❝ How's the pain.❞ ❝ It's ... background noise.❞ ❝ I'm louder?❞ ❝ You're always louder than fuckin' anything.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
❝ What'cha wanna do for them twitches?❞ ❝ ...Sleep. I think.❞ ❝ Whuh?❞ ❝ S'what people normally do in the dark, right.❞ ❝ Uh, yah. --Y'want me out?❞ ❝ No.❞ ❝ Okay.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
° 04/03 ∴ Note
❝ daylight aint so bad sometimes❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 04/07 ∴ AIM Log
❝ What happened.❞ ❝ Nothin'. It's all g-... ...I let myself get let down.❞ ❝ ...Nn. See? S'why I can't get wrong. I don't ever want you even this fucked up cuz'a me.❞ ❝ --You wouldn'a. You would'a known.❞ ❝ I wanna know. I wanna help.❞ ❝ I know.❞ ❝ ... Not yet then. Maybe.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
° 04/05 ∴ Threadjack from Fuminori
❝ -- Lover, hunh? What's it like?❞ ❝ You already know.❞ ❝ No, I don't.❞ ❝Everything he talked about. Understanding, carving out a space, dying for. You got it all already. ❞ ❝ You don't got me. Fuck off.❞ ❝ You're usually much better at listenin', Fox. I said you got me.❞ ❝ Too bad lovers come in pairs. You're shit outta luck.❞ ❝ Three's a crowd, yeah?❞ ❝ One's not fucking annoying.❞ ❝ You need me.❞ ❝ Shut up.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
❝ Lie to me.❞ ❝ I hope you live forever.❞ ❝ Again. Somethin' better.❞ ❝ You're a good person deep down.❞ ❝ Ha, that's a lie? Better. Keep goin'.❞ ❝ You're gonna find love.❞ ❝ S'only a lie 'cuz you don't believe it. I'm gonna learn 'em. Your lies. So you can't ever use 'em against me.❞ ❝ There's a lot of 'em. Your lifespan ain't long enough.❞ ❝ Already died, remember? All that's left is time t'kill learnin' you.❞ ❝ Now that's a goddamn lie if I ever heard one, an' I didn't even ask for it.❞ ❝ I don't lie.❞ ❝ It's only truth 'coz you believe it.❞ ❝ You don't wanna be learned?❞ ❝ I don't, but that ain't what I meant. I meant that's not all that's left.❞ ❝ That ain't a lie; that's just cruel. You're all that's left.❞ ❝ Plenty'a people more geared up to be learned.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
❝ I know y'like the way dirt tastes, but you gotta stop eatin' it willingly. I want you Up with me.❞ ❝ I'm a blind-ass fungi-covered bottom dweller, an' that's what I'm used to, you skin-cancer fuckwit.❞ ❝ Then why you keep wantin' to get higher? Felt better when you did.❞ ❝ Feels worse when I slide back down, too.❞ ❝ I'll catch ya.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 04/08 ∴ Text
❝ hey did something happen to your camera ??❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 04/08 ∴ Threadjack from Heero
❝ I want a killer robot.❞ ❝ How 'bout a killer killer?❞ ❝ I already killed him yesterday.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
❝ Ain't reports supposed to tell the truth?❞ ❝ Naw, man. They tell their own truth. Think'a it like this - anything wrote down is only "true" for a given value of true. The truth is bigger than fuckin' reports an' shit.❞ ❝ ... Ohhhh. So its really more about relatin' to the audience. Almost like a movie.❞ ❝ Yeah. Almost.❞ ❝ 'Cept it ain't really slivers, yeah? Just info.❞ ❝ ❞ ❝ Ahuh. Info's a tool. Slivers ... ain't.❞ ❝ I'd be pissed at ya if they was.❞ ❝ An' I couldn't live with that.❞ ❝ Nice wording.❞ ❝ Actually appreciatin' my semantics for once? Fucking hell, the stars fallin' down?❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ I'm jealous. Snakes don't adapt well, yeah? Too cold-blooded.❞ ❝ Not everythin' about you is all covered in scales.❞ ❝ You wouldn't dare call me hot-blooded, would ya?❞ ❝ Naw. You died.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ You done bein' green?❞ ❝ Dunno. You offerin' colors now, too?❞ ❝ Black an' blue if you wanna push it, ass.❞ ❝ Thought you was supposed to put silver in me.❞ ❝ That's not semantics, that's dyslexia.❞ ❝ What, no werewolf crock? I'm surprised.❞ ❝ When did you get the impression I was inta furries.❞ ❝ So you're "inta" me now?❞ ❝ So you're a special kinda deaf, now?❞ ❝ S'all Noise after a while, anyway. I just like the other waves better.❞ ❝ Hn. I got some Noise to go listen to an' try to make sense outta.❞ ❝ You're good at it!❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 04/12 ∴ Note
❝ your kind likes its hidden little dens❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 4/15 ∴ Genkaku Post
❝ The bed don't smell like you no more.❞ ↘ Genkaku
❝ I got another secret. One y'might not ... like.❞ ❝ That right? Well, you ain't gonna like how this feels, so we're even. Me first.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ Why're we doin' this, anyway? Why don'cha just save me? Now.❞ ❝ Don't say shit like that when you don't mean it. You know damn well it ain't time yet. Plus I'd never hear that secret.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ It don't really change nothin'. I know you. ❞ ❝ Y'know me...?❞ ❝ Not all the details an' probably not even half'a your secrets, but. I think I know you, or at least some'a you. It's a work in progress, I guess, but it ain't like I'm shootin' in the dark. Y'know?❞ ❝ So you wanna.❞ ❝ What, know? Yeah.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ -- Maybe it'll be enough. Guess I want it t'be.❞ ↘ Badou
❝ This's yours, too.❞ ↘ Genkaku (about the scar on his chest)
❝ Your arm. From the blackout. Did it scar?❞ ❝ -- Yeah. A little. Why?❞ ❝ I couldn't tell. Was too much blood. Ya left the knife in the couch, so I wondered if it didn't, is all.❞ ❝ I got no more use for it. It served its purpose. You didn't cut very clean. Not as clean as bird-brain, anyhow. ... Wanna touch 'em?❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ I'll scar you someday, too.❞ ❝ Ya forget?❞ ❝ ... You don't like it.❞ ❝ Never really thought 'bout it in terms'a 'like' or 'don't like.' ...It's, just, y'know, part'a me now.❞ ❝ But so're the rest of your scars. So that one's nothin' special.❞ ❝ That's like sayin' skin's nothin' special because it's all over. Scars are important. More important'n skin, even.❞ ❝ ... Yeah, but.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ We ain't gotta watch a movie.❞ ❝ Oh, we ain't? What'cha wanna do instead, 'sides put my arms n' legs to sleep with your fat fuckin' body?❞ ❝ Talk. T'you. Even if words don't suit you. I like t'hear 'em anyway.❞ ❝ What'cha wanna talk about?❞ ❝ You. What gets you started?❞ ❝ Started? ...Caffeine an' nicotine. Curiosity. Wantin' to know more. -- Feelin' more. Like a back to back shoot-out.❞ ❝ Mm. What slows ya down?❞ ❝ Not much. Blood loss. Y'might be familiar with it.❞ ❝ Don't lie. Ya slow yourself down.❞ ❝ ...Maybe.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ Never have I ever seen a real, blue sky. Drink up, bitches.❞ ❝ You're gonna.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ Never have I ever... kissed a dude.❞ ❝ Drink, motherfucker.❞ ↘ Havoc, Genkaku
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ You gotta... suck the venom out. S'what you do with toxicatin'.❞ ❝ S'ck mine out, s'ck mine out!!!❞ ❝ YOU AIN'T GOT BIT BY SHIT DON'T LIE.❞ ❝ I GOT BIT BY A LOOOOVE BUUUUUG~!!❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
° 4/20 ∴ Action
❝ Good ya came by, anyway. There's smokes on the table.❞ ❝ Yah? --Hey, you're outta... ...These oughta be the last ones you gotta get. I got more'n half saved now, been doin' two missions this month an' a bunch of odd jobs. I'm this close, I got it picked out an' all, too.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ It's a fun an' easy way to express your contempt and rejection of authority an' show solidarity with your fellow brothers of the leaf! Plus, it's like this unspoken ritual thing, y'know? Like you know in frats and those clubs with the fezzes, right, they always got that rule about That of Which We Do Not Speak? S'like that, 'coz you dunno who's a narc, but you also gotta tell everybody happy holidays!❞ ↘ Badou
° 4/24 ∴ Text
❝ youre so cute❞ ❝ you arethe only person in the entire universe whos said that to me in mywhole life and its not new and specialand super fun its CRAP❞ ❝ oh hey howd you do all the fancy stuff ??❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ can i ask you something w/o you getting super creepy❞ ❝ i doubt it but you can try❞ ❝ never leave me feelin nothin but confidence super monk ...why you got a problem with taking off his mask but keep asking to peek under mine ?❞ ❝ cuz i know you his is a cage and i got problems with people tearing those down yours aint a cage cages have bars & things you can see through yours is a secret and its all covered in black your secrets ARE you and your mine so i gotta see❞ ❝ what about keepin the mystery alive ...a lot of the timeswhen i find out all of someones secrets i dont g ive a fuck about anything thats leftover❞ ❝ im the opposite i told you about owl secrets just pull me in closer❞ ❝ im not good with words❞ ❝ aint asking you to tell me im asking you to show me❞ ❝ you think im any better at that ?❞ ❝ maybe not but im too good at taking so you gotta handle this one❞ ❝ i can handle it❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ youre not worried itll happen to you ?❞ ❝ a little i guess thats hte point of a tool aint it ? to be used & tossed & if you arent wanting me as a tool then i guess i guess i got a reason to hold onto hope❞ ❝ yeah okay❞ ❝ its kinda why Were so important if your my cage i don't want anybody taking you or knowing you or whatever and why i like being your secret ...i am your secret yeah ?❞ ❝ one of the noisiest ones i got❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 4/24 ∴ Log
❝ I talked to him today. Was, when the pipe broke.❞ ❝ Yah, so? I figured already. Whatcha gettin' at?❞ ❝ He's tryin' to fix you. Wants to. Suddenly he thinks he's in the game. Why's'at.❞ ❝ ...We been talkin' some again.❞ ❝ What happened to him just bein' a corpse?❞ ❝ A corpse gives up. Shitty kid's got more fuckin' tenacity than the entire damn cast of a zombie flick.❞ ❝ An' that makes him human? Fuck enthusiasm.❞ ❝ I dunno. I don't got any truths or lies about that one.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ Fuck you. Don't ask if you don't wanna know.❞ ❝ I did.❞ ❝ No it's not. You gonna turn liar now, after such a long run? Fuckin' shame.❞ ❝ Bigger shame's you not understandin'. I ain't lyin'. I asked 'cuz I wanna know.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ Gotta 'nother question. You trust me, but are ya afraid'a me? Or ... are ya afraid'a losin' me?❞ ❝ I know, okay? I know I'm a hypocrite. But so are you. 'Coz you're afraid'a him.❞ ❝ ... I'm not afraid of him. I hate him.❞ ❝ ...Why?❞ ❝ I saved 'im. He should be gone. He should still be a corpse for you, an' you shouldn't have to be trying to ... undo loss.❞ ❝ You 'should' still be a corpse, too. But you ain't, and we met, and you killed him. ...Fuck should. You're here, and he's here, an' I'm here too, an'... we all got a lot of loss, 'coz you can't undo it. All of it just is what it is.❞ ❝ If you can't undo it, why're you...? I don't get it.❞ ❝ Just 'coz you feel loss don't mean you ...stop. You adapt, you hafta. When he wouldn't let me -- kill him again, I had'a put that loss on a great big pile of it, pick all of it up, an' keep moving to somethin' new. If ya live in the past you die in the present.❞ ❝ ... So it's a Now thing. This ain't about him no more, is it? --Who were they. Who'd you hafta adapt for.❞ ❝ It is about him, it's not like loss's got a damn time span, an' survival's always -- Now. ...Don't make me go diggin' up corpses.❞ ❝ It's a Wise Bird an' they're dead. A blood relation, yeah? Who you were then's gonna tell me who you are now. You know. You know me. I gotta know you.❞ ❝ What's it matter? He didn't come back.❞ ❝ It was a long time ago, huh. 'Cuz you're so hard now. How old were you?❞ ❝ Y'want it like this? Me up against a wall, cornered and broke-boned? Hatin' it? This is how you want it?❞ ❝ That sounds kinda like Us. You think it'd happen any other way?❞ ❝ Yeah. 'Coz it's been like this before, a firing squad kinda interrogation. Cough up the info or pay the price. But yer probably right. Dunno why I thought we - it'd be better.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ You're fuckin' impossible.❞ ❝ But you won't bail. They'll get wet. Ya gonna ruin 'em like that.❞ ❝ Fuck off.❞ ❝ Yer too hard on yourself.❞ ❝ I ain't bailin', but you can get out.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 4/29 ∴ Action ◄| Badou's Wise Bird
❝ Hiya. You still pissed?❞ ❝ I ain't pissed. I'm just ... payin' the price.❞ ❝ Don't gotta. I get it.❞ ❝ Gettin' it don't always make it better. I'm gettin' sick'a slitherin' forward, too, y'know.❞ ❝ That don't mean the answer's gonna be in places left behind.❞ ❝ I'm convinced the answer ain't even in front of me, the way you keep swervin' and hiding. Didn't you get onto me last time I tried that?❞ ❝ It wasn't 'coz I'm playin' hide and seek, asshole.❞ ❝ You're playin' something, all right. And you ain't apologizin'. So what the hell ya want?❞ ❝ D'ya remember when I sliced the side'a your neck? ...I was pissed 'coz ya said shit I didn't like. But it was shit that was true, an' that had'a be said, 'coz... otherwise it'd screw up the -- trust we got. So I ain't apologisin'. S'more important for me to trust you than t'keep you happy, like some kinda yes-man.❞ ❝ So I say shit ya don't like an' I bleed. You say shit I don't like and I get -- what, this? Bein' slammed out? Y'got it all fuckin' backwards. ...Mm'gettin' expensive coffee. Catch ya later.❞ ❝ You're slammin' yourself out, you dumb prick.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ I came to find you.❞ ❝ Yeah, an' how'd ya do it? 'Cuz I'm bettin' it wasn't intuition.❞ ❝ ...I knew it was here or the gardens. But I double checked your voice on the network. I heard steam. Y'wanna make me bleed? Fine. The old bloodstains are over there, ain't they? Freshen up the paint. Right there.❞ ❝ I don't wanna bleed you. Not when you're just handing them out.❞ ❝ Forget want. You know I don't give a fuck about that. What'cha need?❞ ❝ ...I need a lover.❞ ❝ I know. An' I know knowin' don't make it all better, too. ...It makes it worse. But I still wanna know you. --And you wanna know me. I was 11, almost 12. I watched him get beaten to death and fall. He was ...my. Brother.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
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° 04/01 ∴ Log ◄| Maintenance
❝ Find somethin' to trap yourself in, maybe.❞ ❝ You?❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ Think I could? Cage ya. Even with my blood all thinned out.❞ ❝ Yeah.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 04/02 ∴ MODE OF CONTACT
❝ S'at what it feels like? "Loss", I mean.❞ ❝ Yeah. Yeah, that's...❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ S'weird keepin' secrets from you.❞ ❝ First time I ever heard that one.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ ♪ Oooh, I wanna take ya to Bermuda, Bahamas -- c'mon, pretty mama... ♪ ❞ ↘ Genkaku
❝ How's the pain.❞ ❝ It's ... background noise.❞ ❝ I'm louder?❞ ❝ You're always louder than fuckin' anything.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
❝ What'cha wanna do for them twitches?❞ ❝ ...Sleep. I think.❞ ❝ Whuh?❞ ❝ S'what people normally do in the dark, right.❞ ❝ Uh, yah. --Y'want me out?❞ ❝ No.❞ ❝ Okay.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
° 04/03 ∴ Note
❝ daylight aint so bad sometimes❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 04/07 ∴ AIM Log
❝ What happened.❞ ❝ Nothin'. It's all g-... ...I let myself get let down.❞ ❝ ...Nn. See? S'why I can't get wrong. I don't ever want you even this fucked up cuz'a me.❞ ❝ --You wouldn'a. You would'a known.❞ ❝ I wanna know. I wanna help.❞ ❝ I know.❞ ❝ ... Not yet then. Maybe.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
° 04/05 ∴ Threadjack from Fuminori
❝ -- Lover, hunh? What's it like?❞ ❝ You already know.❞ ❝ No, I don't.❞ ❝Everything he talked about. Understanding, carving out a space, dying for. You got it all already. ❞ ❝ You don't got me. Fuck off.❞ ❝ You're usually much better at listenin', Fox. I said you got me.❞ ❝ Too bad lovers come in pairs. You're shit outta luck.❞ ❝ Three's a crowd, yeah?❞ ❝ One's not fucking annoying.❞ ❝ You need me.❞ ❝ Shut up.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
❝ Lie to me.❞ ❝ I hope you live forever.❞ ❝ Again. Somethin' better.❞ ❝ You're a good person deep down.❞ ❝ Ha, that's a lie? Better. Keep goin'.❞ ❝ You're gonna find love.❞ ❝ S'only a lie 'cuz you don't believe it. I'm gonna learn 'em. Your lies. So you can't ever use 'em against me.❞ ❝ There's a lot of 'em. Your lifespan ain't long enough.❞ ❝ Already died, remember? All that's left is time t'kill learnin' you.❞ ❝ Now that's a goddamn lie if I ever heard one, an' I didn't even ask for it.❞ ❝ I don't lie.❞ ❝ It's only truth 'coz you believe it.❞ ❝ You don't wanna be learned?❞ ❝ I don't, but that ain't what I meant. I meant that's not all that's left.❞ ❝ That ain't a lie; that's just cruel. You're all that's left.❞ ❝ Plenty'a people more geared up to be learned.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou, Genkaku
❝ I know y'like the way dirt tastes, but you gotta stop eatin' it willingly. I want you Up with me.❞ ❝ I'm a blind-ass fungi-covered bottom dweller, an' that's what I'm used to, you skin-cancer fuckwit.❞ ❝ Then why you keep wantin' to get higher? Felt better when you did.❞ ❝ Feels worse when I slide back down, too.❞ ❝ I'll catch ya.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 04/08 ∴ Text
❝ hey did something happen to your camera ??❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 04/08 ∴ Threadjack from Heero
❝ I want a killer robot.❞ ❝ How 'bout a killer killer?❞ ❝ I already killed him yesterday.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
❝ Ain't reports supposed to tell the truth?❞ ❝ Naw, man. They tell their own truth. Think'a it like this - anything wrote down is only "true" for a given value of true. The truth is bigger than fuckin' reports an' shit.❞ ❝ ... Ohhhh. So its really more about relatin' to the audience. Almost like a movie.❞ ❝ Yeah. Almost.❞ ❝ 'Cept it ain't really slivers, yeah? Just info.❞ ❝ ❞ ❝ Ahuh. Info's a tool. Slivers ... ain't.❞ ❝ I'd be pissed at ya if they was.❞ ❝ An' I couldn't live with that.❞ ❝ Nice wording.❞ ❝ Actually appreciatin' my semantics for once? Fucking hell, the stars fallin' down?❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ I'm jealous. Snakes don't adapt well, yeah? Too cold-blooded.❞ ❝ Not everythin' about you is all covered in scales.❞ ❝ You wouldn't dare call me hot-blooded, would ya?❞ ❝ Naw. You died.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ You done bein' green?❞ ❝ Dunno. You offerin' colors now, too?❞ ❝ Black an' blue if you wanna push it, ass.❞ ❝ Thought you was supposed to put silver in me.❞ ❝ That's not semantics, that's dyslexia.❞ ❝ What, no werewolf crock? I'm surprised.❞ ❝ When did you get the impression I was inta furries.❞ ❝ So you're "inta" me now?❞ ❝ So you're a special kinda deaf, now?❞ ❝ S'all Noise after a while, anyway. I just like the other waves better.❞ ❝ Hn. I got some Noise to go listen to an' try to make sense outta.❞ ❝ You're good at it!❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 04/12 ∴ Note
❝ your kind likes its hidden little dens❞ ↘ Genkaku
° 4/15 ∴ Genkaku Post
❝ The bed don't smell like you no more.❞ ↘ Genkaku
❝ I got another secret. One y'might not ... like.❞ ❝ That right? Well, you ain't gonna like how this feels, so we're even. Me first.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ Why're we doin' this, anyway? Why don'cha just save me? Now.❞ ❝ Don't say shit like that when you don't mean it. You know damn well it ain't time yet. Plus I'd never hear that secret.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ It don't really change nothin'. I know you. ❞ ❝ Y'know me...?❞ ❝ Not all the details an' probably not even half'a your secrets, but. I think I know you, or at least some'a you. It's a work in progress, I guess, but it ain't like I'm shootin' in the dark. Y'know?❞ ❝ So you wanna.❞ ❝ What, know? Yeah.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ -- Maybe it'll be enough. Guess I want it t'be.❞ ↘ Badou
❝ This's yours, too.❞ ↘ Genkaku (about the scar on his chest)
❝ Your arm. From the blackout. Did it scar?❞ ❝ -- Yeah. A little. Why?❞ ❝ I couldn't tell. Was too much blood. Ya left the knife in the couch, so I wondered if it didn't, is all.❞ ❝ I got no more use for it. It served its purpose. You didn't cut very clean. Not as clean as bird-brain, anyhow. ... Wanna touch 'em?❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ I'll scar you someday, too.❞ ❝ Ya forget?❞ ❝ ... You don't like it.❞ ❝ Never really thought 'bout it in terms'a 'like' or 'don't like.' ...It's, just, y'know, part'a me now.❞ ❝ But so're the rest of your scars. So that one's nothin' special.❞ ❝ That's like sayin' skin's nothin' special because it's all over. Scars are important. More important'n skin, even.❞ ❝ ... Yeah, but.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ We ain't gotta watch a movie.❞ ❝ Oh, we ain't? What'cha wanna do instead, 'sides put my arms n' legs to sleep with your fat fuckin' body?❞ ❝ Talk. T'you. Even if words don't suit you. I like t'hear 'em anyway.❞ ❝ What'cha wanna talk about?❞ ❝ You. What gets you started?❞ ❝ Started? ...Caffeine an' nicotine. Curiosity. Wantin' to know more. -- Feelin' more. Like a back to back shoot-out.❞ ❝ Mm. What slows ya down?❞ ❝ Not much. Blood loss. Y'might be familiar with it.❞ ❝ Don't lie. Ya slow yourself down.❞ ❝ ...Maybe.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ Never have I ever seen a real, blue sky. Drink up, bitches.❞ ❝ You're gonna.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ Never have I ever... kissed a dude.❞ ❝ Drink, motherfucker.❞ ↘ Havoc, Genkaku
° 4/17 ∴ Meme
❝ You gotta... suck the venom out. S'what you do with toxicatin'.❞ ❝ S'ck mine out, s'ck mine out!!!❞ ❝ YOU AIN'T GOT BIT BY SHIT DON'T LIE.❞ ❝ I GOT BIT BY A LOOOOVE BUUUUUG~!!❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku, Badou
° 4/20 ∴ Action
❝ Good ya came by, anyway. There's smokes on the table.❞ ❝ Yah? --Hey, you're outta... ...These oughta be the last ones you gotta get. I got more'n half saved now, been doin' two missions this month an' a bunch of odd jobs. I'm this close, I got it picked out an' all, too.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ It's a fun an' easy way to express your contempt and rejection of authority an' show solidarity with your fellow brothers of the leaf! Plus, it's like this unspoken ritual thing, y'know? Like you know in frats and those clubs with the fezzes, right, they always got that rule about That of Which We Do Not Speak? S'like that, 'coz you dunno who's a narc, but you also gotta tell everybody happy holidays!❞ ↘ Badou
° 4/24 ∴ Text
❝ youre so cute❞ ❝ you arethe only person in the entire universe whos said that to me in mywhole life and its not new and specialand super fun its CRAP❞ ❝ oh hey howd you do all the fancy stuff ??❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ can i ask you something w/o you getting super creepy❞ ❝ i doubt it but you can try❞ ❝ never leave me feelin nothin but confidence super monk ...why you got a problem with taking off his mask but keep asking to peek under mine ?❞ ❝ cuz i know you his is a cage and i got problems with people tearing those down yours aint a cage cages have bars & things you can see through yours is a secret and its all covered in black your secrets ARE you and your mine so i gotta see❞ ❝ what about keepin the mystery alive ...a lot of the timeswhen i find out all of someones secrets i dont g ive a fuck about anything thats leftover❞ ❝ im the opposite i told you about owl secrets just pull me in closer❞ ❝ im not good with words❞ ❝ aint asking you to tell me im asking you to show me❞ ❝ you think im any better at that ?❞ ❝ maybe not but im too good at taking so you gotta handle this one❞ ❝ i can handle it❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ youre not worried itll happen to you ?❞ ❝ a little i guess thats hte point of a tool aint it ? to be used & tossed & if you arent wanting me as a tool then i guess i guess i got a reason to hold onto hope❞ ❝ yeah okay❞ ❝ its kinda why Were so important if your my cage i don't want anybody taking you or knowing you or whatever and why i like being your secret ...i am your secret yeah ?❞ ❝ one of the noisiest ones i got❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
° 4/24 ∴ Log
❝ I talked to him today. Was, when the pipe broke.❞ ❝ Yah, so? I figured already. Whatcha gettin' at?❞ ❝ He's tryin' to fix you. Wants to. Suddenly he thinks he's in the game. Why's'at.❞ ❝ ...We been talkin' some again.❞ ❝ What happened to him just bein' a corpse?❞ ❝ A corpse gives up. Shitty kid's got more fuckin' tenacity than the entire damn cast of a zombie flick.❞ ❝ An' that makes him human? Fuck enthusiasm.❞ ❝ I dunno. I don't got any truths or lies about that one.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ Fuck you. Don't ask if you don't wanna know.❞ ❝ I did.❞ ❝ No it's not. You gonna turn liar now, after such a long run? Fuckin' shame.❞ ❝ Bigger shame's you not understandin'. I ain't lyin'. I asked 'cuz I wanna know.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ Gotta 'nother question. You trust me, but are ya afraid'a me? Or ... are ya afraid'a losin' me?❞ ❝ I know, okay? I know I'm a hypocrite. But so are you. 'Coz you're afraid'a him.❞ ❝ ... I'm not afraid of him. I hate him.❞ ❝ ...Why?❞ ❝ I saved 'im. He should be gone. He should still be a corpse for you, an' you shouldn't have to be trying to ... undo loss.❞ ❝ You 'should' still be a corpse, too. But you ain't, and we met, and you killed him. ...Fuck should. You're here, and he's here, an' I'm here too, an'... we all got a lot of loss, 'coz you can't undo it. All of it just is what it is.❞ ❝ If you can't undo it, why're you...? I don't get it.❞ ❝ Just 'coz you feel loss don't mean you ...stop. You adapt, you hafta. When he wouldn't let me -- kill him again, I had'a put that loss on a great big pile of it, pick all of it up, an' keep moving to somethin' new. If ya live in the past you die in the present.❞ ❝ ... So it's a Now thing. This ain't about him no more, is it? --Who were they. Who'd you hafta adapt for.❞ ❝ It is about him, it's not like loss's got a damn time span, an' survival's always -- Now. ...Don't make me go diggin' up corpses.❞ ❝ It's a Wise Bird an' they're dead. A blood relation, yeah? Who you were then's gonna tell me who you are now. You know. You know me. I gotta know you.❞ ❝ What's it matter? He didn't come back.❞ ❝ It was a long time ago, huh. 'Cuz you're so hard now. How old were you?❞ ❝ Y'want it like this? Me up against a wall, cornered and broke-boned? Hatin' it? This is how you want it?❞ ❝ That sounds kinda like Us. You think it'd happen any other way?❞ ❝ Yeah. 'Coz it's been like this before, a firing squad kinda interrogation. Cough up the info or pay the price. But yer probably right. Dunno why I thought we - it'd be better.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
❝ You're fuckin' impossible.❞ ❝ But you won't bail. They'll get wet. Ya gonna ruin 'em like that.❞ ❝ Fuck off.❞ ❝ Yer too hard on yourself.❞ ❝ I ain't bailin', but you can get out.❞ ↘ Genkaku, Badou
° 4/29 ∴ Action ◄| Badou's Wise Bird
❝ Hiya. You still pissed?❞ ❝ I ain't pissed. I'm just ... payin' the price.❞ ❝ Don't gotta. I get it.❞ ❝ Gettin' it don't always make it better. I'm gettin' sick'a slitherin' forward, too, y'know.❞ ❝ That don't mean the answer's gonna be in places left behind.❞ ❝ I'm convinced the answer ain't even in front of me, the way you keep swervin' and hiding. Didn't you get onto me last time I tried that?❞ ❝ It wasn't 'coz I'm playin' hide and seek, asshole.❞ ❝ You're playin' something, all right. And you ain't apologizin'. So what the hell ya want?❞ ❝ D'ya remember when I sliced the side'a your neck? ...I was pissed 'coz ya said shit I didn't like. But it was shit that was true, an' that had'a be said, 'coz... otherwise it'd screw up the -- trust we got. So I ain't apologisin'. S'more important for me to trust you than t'keep you happy, like some kinda yes-man.❞ ❝ So I say shit ya don't like an' I bleed. You say shit I don't like and I get -- what, this? Bein' slammed out? Y'got it all fuckin' backwards. ...Mm'gettin' expensive coffee. Catch ya later.❞ ❝ You're slammin' yourself out, you dumb prick.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
❝ I came to find you.❞ ❝ Yeah, an' how'd ya do it? 'Cuz I'm bettin' it wasn't intuition.❞ ❝ ...I knew it was here or the gardens. But I double checked your voice on the network. I heard steam. Y'wanna make me bleed? Fine. The old bloodstains are over there, ain't they? Freshen up the paint. Right there.❞ ❝ I don't wanna bleed you. Not when you're just handing them out.❞ ❝ Forget want. You know I don't give a fuck about that. What'cha need?❞ ❝ ...I need a lover.❞ ❝ I know. An' I know knowin' don't make it all better, too. ...It makes it worse. But I still wanna know you. --And you wanna know me. I was 11, almost 12. I watched him get beaten to death and fall. He was ...my. Brother.❞ ↘ Badou, Genkaku
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