i'm starting over
last night i freaked out. i freaked out and it was bad. i realized that yeah, i've probably been deluding myself for a while. and now i need to move on.
but it's hard you know? i can't just stop being who i am. i am this dreamer, this utter romantic. so i have to learn to balance dreams and reality. and i try, i try now. my new year's resolution is be more proactive. and i am trying. this is me trying. which is kinda sad, isn't it? but i am going to be stronger and i am going to try and change. i've been wallowing and i've had excuses but not any more.
this is me. one day, one day i'll be whole, in the way i haven't been since e left. and yeah, k is right, i try to be accepted because in my mind acceptance is love.
whatever. i'll be okay, i know i will. its just this goddamn month, january. well, febuary too, the winter months. but i'll get better. just right now sucks.
i'll be okay. this will all be okay.
but it's hard you know? i can't just stop being who i am. i am this dreamer, this utter romantic. so i have to learn to balance dreams and reality. and i try, i try now. my new year's resolution is be more proactive. and i am trying. this is me trying. which is kinda sad, isn't it? but i am going to be stronger and i am going to try and change. i've been wallowing and i've had excuses but not any more.
this is me. one day, one day i'll be whole, in the way i haven't been since e left. and yeah, k is right, i try to be accepted because in my mind acceptance is love.
whatever. i'll be okay, i know i will. its just this goddamn month, january. well, febuary too, the winter months. but i'll get better. just right now sucks.
i'll be okay. this will all be okay.