We Speak in Different voices------- Though Week!!
Man it seems like lately everything I do is wrong and everything I saw comes out the wrong way! Whats wrong with me? I just dont understand. Then there are all these other little things that are really making me boil inside.
To start, My little sister is being a pain in the ass like she always is- horrasing me and making me feel even worse about myself. Gr, she really makes me angry. Then my older sister is mad at me because she thinks i take her for granted. I'm sorry if it may seem that way but I really don't. I suppose I should start really truly try not to depend so much on lili any more. I'll be on my own now. Even though it may be difficulte i will do it.
Then there is still a little convorsation running through my head that me and my cusin had. The convo consisted of the fact that i live in a bubble. What? How is that? I am everywhere in life. I have a job, volunteering and school! How do i live in a bubble? Then i thought well maybe she means i live in a bubble because I'm always doing stuff for me and getting stuff for me. I thought "You know I really am like that alot. Its always me me me." Well Not anymore. Although I'm not very social and don't have many friends, I can still focus on others for once insted of just me.
Ok so I know that you probably have heard enough about me but there is just one more thing I want to say! I am pretty ticked! Why? You ask, well let me tell you:
At my school there is an hornor thing for kids. Its not like honors societ it is better. It is something that honors the top 10% of the sophmore junior and senior classes. Well for my class, my best friend go in the top 10%,which really ticked me off because she cheats in all her classes. I should have gotten that award. I worked me ass off to get the grades I have and I get nothing in return. I guess dad is right. Because I am a person of faith stuff like that is going to happen because who controlls the world? The Devil. He wants to make it so hard for us people of faith that we just want to give up. But you know I wont. Even though its just a stupid award I know i will get over it. I know I did my best in my classes and I know that that other person didn't. Like dad said. Like is going to be though for theose of faith but for those who have no faith life will be easy.
Oh,how I hate this horrid place. But, I know if i don't give up it will all get better and easier for me!
Thanks for listening to my ranting I just really needed to get it out!
<33Carolyn
To start, My little sister is being a pain in the ass like she always is- horrasing me and making me feel even worse about myself. Gr, she really makes me angry. Then my older sister is mad at me because she thinks i take her for granted. I'm sorry if it may seem that way but I really don't. I suppose I should start really truly try not to depend so much on lili any more. I'll be on my own now. Even though it may be difficulte i will do it.
Then there is still a little convorsation running through my head that me and my cusin had. The convo consisted of the fact that i live in a bubble. What? How is that? I am everywhere in life. I have a job, volunteering and school! How do i live in a bubble? Then i thought well maybe she means i live in a bubble because I'm always doing stuff for me and getting stuff for me. I thought "You know I really am like that alot. Its always me me me." Well Not anymore. Although I'm not very social and don't have many friends, I can still focus on others for once insted of just me.
Ok so I know that you probably have heard enough about me but there is just one more thing I want to say! I am pretty ticked! Why? You ask, well let me tell you:
At my school there is an hornor thing for kids. Its not like honors societ it is better. It is something that honors the top 10% of the sophmore junior and senior classes. Well for my class, my best friend go in the top 10%,which really ticked me off because she cheats in all her classes. I should have gotten that award. I worked me ass off to get the grades I have and I get nothing in return. I guess dad is right. Because I am a person of faith stuff like that is going to happen because who controlls the world? The Devil. He wants to make it so hard for us people of faith that we just want to give up. But you know I wont. Even though its just a stupid award I know i will get over it. I know I did my best in my classes and I know that that other person didn't. Like dad said. Like is going to be though for theose of faith but for those who have no faith life will be easy.
Oh,how I hate this horrid place. But, I know if i don't give up it will all get better and easier for me!
Thanks for listening to my ranting I just really needed to get it out!
<33Carolyn