I sold my soul
Very sad day. No books came either yesterday or today. Anasuya Mataji (the temple presidents wife) sent me an email saying that they found someone who would sponsor a home program on Friday evening. I replied her and also told her to tell Purnendu Prabhu that I havent yet recieved the books and I canceled the book table because of this. She replied me saying that I was supposed to email him. I replied her again and told her that I emailed him twice and he said that if he doesnt get an email from me then he would call. I expressed to her how disappointed I was and that I felt cheated. This was a major setback for me, I dont know when I will have time to get a contact table again. Very disappointing. I feel a if I sold my soul, I was forced to tell him everything just so I can do a little service but I recieved nothing. I was angry, now Im just sad, past the point of crying to a point where Im just too disappointed. Yesterday I asked about putting up some flyers and they said they would take four, stamp them and put it up themselves. This morning I went looking for them, I only found two, almost unrecognizable. Once again, very disappointed. Usually when I hear the Amazon Story from Indradyumna Swami it makes me feel better. He is so funny and such a good story teller. It makes me feel enthusiastic again. But today it didnt work. It just didnt make me feel better.