the workadays were propping the bar, quietly erasing the week
dont you hate it when you hear someone else getting credit for a thought, and you distinctly remember having that thought like two years ago? and you didnt bother voicing it because you didnt think it was anything special compared to SOME OF THE OTHER INCREDIBLE THOUGHTS YOU HAVE? and the fact that someone else thought that person's thought was credible, is like, such an insult. and you're just like, 'man, that is NOTHING'.
i love my laptop somethi CHRONIC. i think i do declare her to be called oscar. maybe penny. give me some more time, please. but she is lovely and PINK. MAYBE PINGING PEGGY. jennife likes to draw pictures of inging peggy at work. i love the silly things we do at work. today the optometrist used me as a guinea pig for colured contacts so he put lots of different colkoured contacts in my very dark poo coloured eyes. they are poo coloured if your poos are brown. the green looked best and most natural, it was just green on the outside kinda. the yellow looked boring and not different really at all cos the brown overpowered it, the blue looked okay but also didnt show up much, and the purple was powerful but well, it's purple. i may invest in the green. i wanted green eyes ever since jennifer garner was elektra. even her extremely poor taste in people-she-chose-not-to-date-anymore did not dissuade me from wanting elektra's green eyes.
my mum was just cleaning out her room and she found four more things she'd intented to give me or my birthday but forgotten about. score! both barack obama memoires [sweeett], the kate moss fragrance [ehhh... but it smells like ashleigh morgan's room], and the new jodi picoult book which i might read tonight after i watch this movie [dan in real life, very sweet], instead of going out. was supposed to go out for d kendall's 22nd but just cbf. i dont know. theres free drinks between 7 and 9 an free entry to eurobar and it would be fun but just. urgh. i have no money and if i go out i have to make pointless conversation with not entirely intelligent people that i knew three years ago who would expect me to look hot and be charming and happy and silly and i dont know, there are so many things i would rather do. but pretty lame i guess, this is my first weekend as a twenty year old and already i am doing nothing. awesomeeee. pete wanted to hang out in my nonexistent time between work and going out but i dont know if i feel like seeing anyone tonight. what a bore. i would rather blog about how boring i am. killehhhh. irony. possible. whatever. dane cook. attractive.
i want k rudds $900 so i can buy. stuff. there are amazing beautiful bvlgari frames at work and i want them!! but this time i would actually pay for them. and then wear them to work, i would i really would i love them. but i want a new white daybed for my room because i am bored of the boring foldout bed it is an ugly colour when i want white.
i have never really talked to anybody but lately i have seen a psychiatrist and also a psychologist and also a counsellor haha and it is nice to actually talk to people who do nothing but listen and don't know you so don't judge you and just have no preconceived notions of how or what or who you should be. especially when you even told the counsellor all the bad things you've done and she was still like 'but you're a good, solid person, your parents should be pleased." so.nice. but i guess she is used to seeing all fucked up aboriginals in her line of work. it was easy to tell them all the truth. but not about my eating because that doesnt matter.
my laptop is brand new and already there are like two trojan viruses on it! jeez. so annoying. i TOLD my dad that when a file has a virus ofcourse the virus will transfer whenever you're transferring the file but did he believe me, nrooo. ohwell. trojans steal like bank account and credit card information but i never have any money in either of those accounts so it is totally irrelevant. kazam. got you, trojan. take THAT.
also why is it called a trojan. does it build a horse and sneak it into your city so as to take control of society by burning your populace alive? or does the movie exaggerate it just a little.
my head a is a greyhound station where i send my thoughts to far off destinations so they have a chance of finding a place where they're far more suited than here.
i totally dont understand where files go when they get sent to the recycle bin. virtual memory just goes way over my head.
christians and presbyterians and baptists believe that we are less than god, and our whole lives should be spent trying to attain a level of goodness in our lives that one day we will be good enough to walk alongside god in the eternal kingdom of heaven, whereas sects of judaism believe that we are born with a part of god within us and our lives should be spent finding a way to return to that and basically just make it a bigger part of us. but one that nonetheless already exists. god is such an interesting concept.
does anyone else feel like Lost is actually earning it's title of GREATEST SHOW EVER this season? amazing. i never thought i would be so compelled by a kate centric episode. AMAZING. now i understand why i watch it. when lost is good, it is REALLY REALLY GOOD.