SUMMER
update since last time i updated.
well, i went out with dom for about 6 months, and we just recently broke up, mutually, well kind of, we both agreed on it, even if i didn't entirely agree. but we are still friends, and everything's chill, so it's alright, i have to admit it is weird being single again, and i'm not really sure if i prefur it, but we'll see how things go, you never know who you can meet, and what can happen. of course i still love dom, i mean it's only been about 2 weeks, so to get over him that fast would be impossible. so i`m not over him, but i've moved on, so i'm not in that place where i`m stuck.
you can't believe it's happening now
timeline of this summer so far.
june 23-25th- i went to NYC, which was really fun, for my birthday! & i got my first pair of sevens and im very happy =]
june 25th- my birthday! came home, went out to eat with Dom at Terra's which was really nice, and he got me a gorgeous tiffany's necklace! it's beautiful. here's a link if you want to see it http://www.tiffany.com/shopping/item.aspx?sku=19887235&mcat=148204&page=4&menu=1&cid=129093.
then on june 29th i had my birthday party, which i thought was pretty fun, it was kind of just dancing and chilling, but mostly dancing. and from what i saw there wasn't much drama there. except a few incidents including a couple boys and girls...and doing some things...in plain view of everyone..but hey, PDA is everywhere. lol.
JESS was up from the 28th to the 6th of july. which was really nice, since i havn't seen her in forever, & we needed to catch up. we went to the vineyard for a while during that too.
then in july from the 17th-21st i went to NEWPORT with jenna! which was really fun, and she got to meet her secret lova there and i chilled with trip which was pretty cool. and the beach was gorgeous and we both got great tans, and the shopping was so fun. it really is like the best beach town, since downtown is like walkable from the beach, and they have cuteeee stores, and the beach isn't always like packed, and our hotel was RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET from the beach,w hcih ROCKED.
in the silence, all that remains are the words i couldn't say
no back up plan, no second chance, now that you're gone.
after that, i was here, and i went through the whole break up with dom, also i was grounded for the first week whcih made it so much harder since we coudlnt talk or see eachother so we couldnt decide on anything, and it seemed liek everyone was always like inside our buisness and really, i didn't think it was anyone but our buisness what was happening in our realtinship, i know all the want to do is help, but this was strictly between both of us, i guess i needed some support though, because i love dom a lot, and i depended a lot on him. but also not being able to see him for a while, also helped me heal better, and not be completely messsed up over it, and it gave me more time to think about the sistuation, which also helped a lot.
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees, you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on
i`m in this rascal flatts stage of my life, and i LOVE them. i have also gotten to hang out with so many other people now that i'm not tied down with dom, i know that sounds horrible, but i guess in our realtionship we didn't realize how much we didn't hang out with othe rpeople, since it was alright that we just had eachother, now looking at it i dont think that's the best thing, but sometimes love is blinding. and you can't/ don't want to see past the other person, & you only want to see them, of course that's not a bad thing, but you realize afterward how many people you havn't seen ir so long and how many people you are talking to about how OM GI HAVNT SEEN YOU IN FOREVER, or WE HAVE TO CATCH UP! & i cant help but relate it with being in a realtinpship. im not saying it was just with dom but it's with most realtinpships, you get very caught up in the other person, that you kind of dont realize it when you dont see your other friends. of course seeing othe rpeople and not dom doenst make this any easier, but it's nice knowing there is life after loss. & that it's alright to try and move on knowing that you're hurting but that life goes on wheither you're ready for it to or not, and you just have to be prepared for whatever it gives you. i had no idea that we were going to break up. it was actually a shock for me, & that kind of made it harder for me to grasp. but it's okay, we're both fine.
but that`s what you get when you play a country song backwards.