Should he get this???
David -
I’m not sure what it is about you, but you’re always there. I still have feelings for you; I still dream about you; I can still feel my hand in yours. You mean so much to me hun, - more than anyone ever has. I worry about you, and I want you happy. I just get so lost and confused because I can’t let go of everything that happened and was said between us. That all meant so much to me. Some days it’s like I feel like I don’t even matter to you. Other days it’s like nothing has ever changed between us and you still like me. I know you’re married, but I just don’t understand why. For as long as I’ve known you, you have not been happy with her. I just feel bad because I’d do anything to make you happy. You remember the day you called me and you wanted to leave? I never told you this but I was begging both of my parents to try and find somewhere you could stay. Even to this day - I wonder how everything would’ve worked out if you would’ve left. I miss spending time with you. I miss your phone calls. I just miss everything… I’ll never forget the way you used to look at me like I was the only one who mattered to you. It’s so hard to look into your eyes because I’m terrified that you’ll see how much I care about you. When I look into your eyes, it’s like I’m in a whole other world. I’m not sure the purpose of this letter. I’m scared because I feel like if I actually do give you this letter, the only thing it will do is push you away and make you try to think of a way to diminish my feelings for you. But that’s just the thing- I cannot win. If I push you away, it kills me and I’m miserable. But when we talk or you smile at me, all I want to do is hug you and be with you. I could never express to you how much the time we spent together meant to me or how hard it was not to kiss you. I keep dreaming about you all the time. Some dreams are about you getting upset because I’m talking to some guy, but they always end with me telling you that no one comes close to you and that you’re the one I want to be with. Other dreams will be just about us spending time together and it’s just perfect. And I wake up and I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me and how much I miss being with you, but I’m too scared. I don’t want to lose you…even if we just stay friends. You are one of the greatest friends I’ve ever had. And I want you to know that I was not mad at you the other day. I’ve just been upset and frustrated a lot lately. It seems like everything is going wrong. I just wish that we were together, and I know that’s what frustrates me the most. You can make me smile no matter what kind of day I’ve had. Just talking to you makes my day better. Whenever we’ve spent time together or even just had a conversation, nothing else mattered in those moments. You take away the stress and worries- even if it’s just for a few seconds. Just because I joke around with people at work, it doesn’t make you less special to me. When I talk to them, it’s nothing like when I talk to you. You know…this is something I’ve wanted to tell you for a while - the main reason I like the guy from Prison Break is because he reminds me so much of you. There are little things he does that reminds me of some of the moments we spent together. Like - he’s so caring and gentle and those are 2 qualities that I absolutely adore about you. I hold onto anything that reminds me of those moments we shared. So David…you want to know my proof that Misty doesn’t hate you? She understands how I feel. She sees the good in you that I adore. And above all, she wishes that we were together. She knows how happy I was when we were closer. If it weren’t for her, I never would’ve given you half of the letters I did. She has always told me and encouraged me to tell you how I feel. She says you need to know. Anyway - I don’t expect anything from this but to simply make you knowledgeable about how I feel. I know that any feelings you might’ve had for me are gone. I hope you are truly happy, David. You shouldn’t settle with just living your life. I read this quote that reminded me of you:
“Life is about spending time together, about having the time to walk together holding hands, talking quietly as you watch the sun go down. It isn’t glamorous, but it is, in many ways, the best life has to offer.”
Spending your life with someone who can always make you smile and cares so much about you will allow for a lot of wonderful moments. Money can’t buy moments like those.
My heart belongs to you, David…until I can let go.
-Pam
I’m not sure what it is about you, but you’re always there. I still have feelings for you; I still dream about you; I can still feel my hand in yours. You mean so much to me hun, - more than anyone ever has. I worry about you, and I want you happy. I just get so lost and confused because I can’t let go of everything that happened and was said between us. That all meant so much to me. Some days it’s like I feel like I don’t even matter to you. Other days it’s like nothing has ever changed between us and you still like me. I know you’re married, but I just don’t understand why. For as long as I’ve known you, you have not been happy with her. I just feel bad because I’d do anything to make you happy. You remember the day you called me and you wanted to leave? I never told you this but I was begging both of my parents to try and find somewhere you could stay. Even to this day - I wonder how everything would’ve worked out if you would’ve left. I miss spending time with you. I miss your phone calls. I just miss everything… I’ll never forget the way you used to look at me like I was the only one who mattered to you. It’s so hard to look into your eyes because I’m terrified that you’ll see how much I care about you. When I look into your eyes, it’s like I’m in a whole other world. I’m not sure the purpose of this letter. I’m scared because I feel like if I actually do give you this letter, the only thing it will do is push you away and make you try to think of a way to diminish my feelings for you. But that’s just the thing- I cannot win. If I push you away, it kills me and I’m miserable. But when we talk or you smile at me, all I want to do is hug you and be with you. I could never express to you how much the time we spent together meant to me or how hard it was not to kiss you. I keep dreaming about you all the time. Some dreams are about you getting upset because I’m talking to some guy, but they always end with me telling you that no one comes close to you and that you’re the one I want to be with. Other dreams will be just about us spending time together and it’s just perfect. And I wake up and I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me and how much I miss being with you, but I’m too scared. I don’t want to lose you…even if we just stay friends. You are one of the greatest friends I’ve ever had. And I want you to know that I was not mad at you the other day. I’ve just been upset and frustrated a lot lately. It seems like everything is going wrong. I just wish that we were together, and I know that’s what frustrates me the most. You can make me smile no matter what kind of day I’ve had. Just talking to you makes my day better. Whenever we’ve spent time together or even just had a conversation, nothing else mattered in those moments. You take away the stress and worries- even if it’s just for a few seconds. Just because I joke around with people at work, it doesn’t make you less special to me. When I talk to them, it’s nothing like when I talk to you. You know…this is something I’ve wanted to tell you for a while - the main reason I like the guy from Prison Break is because he reminds me so much of you. There are little things he does that reminds me of some of the moments we spent together. Like - he’s so caring and gentle and those are 2 qualities that I absolutely adore about you. I hold onto anything that reminds me of those moments we shared. So David…you want to know my proof that Misty doesn’t hate you? She understands how I feel. She sees the good in you that I adore. And above all, she wishes that we were together. She knows how happy I was when we were closer. If it weren’t for her, I never would’ve given you half of the letters I did. She has always told me and encouraged me to tell you how I feel. She says you need to know. Anyway - I don’t expect anything from this but to simply make you knowledgeable about how I feel. I know that any feelings you might’ve had for me are gone. I hope you are truly happy, David. You shouldn’t settle with just living your life. I read this quote that reminded me of you:
“Life is about spending time together, about having the time to walk together holding hands, talking quietly as you watch the sun go down. It isn’t glamorous, but it is, in many ways, the best life has to offer.”
Spending your life with someone who can always make you smile and cares so much about you will allow for a lot of wonderful moments. Money can’t buy moments like those.
My heart belongs to you, David…until I can let go.
-Pam