this is my now...
Ok so today I get to wake up, feed the fish, feed the cat, let the dog out, then drag him up the hill to get him in, feel guilty for dragging him, now I'm writing about it. Like I've been awake for hours. I can't get anything done this is the first time I've gotten to sit down today. I'm too busy doing things for everybody/thing else! Next, I get to get ready (showering is becoming an issue) to go to town. My mom found a tick on herself and has a bump and wants me to bring the tick (which is on a piece of scotch tape), to the town hall to be tested for lyme, etc. I really wonder what she will do when I move out. Hire somebody to take it to the town hall? I'm so B.S. about this. Like I understand families do each other favors but its like im their indentured servant. Like I owe them something. I owe them nothing. I mean I am grateful for them being such great parents and doing everything they have done for me, and I am happy to help if they need it, but I really owe them nothing. That's not how it works. They chose to have me as their daughter and take care of me give me a great life, and I can never return that favor to them no matter what I do. The only way I can return the favor is to give my own children what my parents gave me. That's how it works. Then, after the town hall, its off to Orla, then CVS. Right now I'm enjoying the sounds and smells of leaf blowers and lawn mowers. Ah spring. Better go shower. Eating something would be nice too but we can't ask for miracles.