May 12, 2005 19:04
I think I finally figured it out. And what have I finally figured out, especially since I didn't even know I was thinking this? Actually, I'm finally able to put this in a way that is understandable and in a way that I hope some people (ahem! Tanya...;)) can understand. What am I talking about? Good question...
Everytime that Tanya and I talk on the tele, and it comes time to end the conversation and, usually, go to sleep, I never say "goodbye" to her, and she has a hard time with that. She says that she needs to hear goodbye whenever she ends a conversation. I've tried to explain to her that I don't say "goodbye" to people that I want to see again. Here's why...
To me, "goodbye" implies an ending of a relationship. "Goodbye" implies "well, I kind of hope I'll see you again, even though I really won't be holding my breath until I see you again." When I end my conversations with Tanya, or for that matter those folks I don't say "goodbye" to, and when you stop looking at what I say, and start paying attention to what I don't say, not saying "goodbye" is the highest thing I could say.
When I don't say "goodbye", I am saying "I really hope to see you again and I am counting down the days until I do see you again. And even if I never see you again in this life, I am fully expecting to see you again when our journies will be ended and the earthly veil lifted from our souls and we are able to finally rest and have peace and be with God. And because that is my sincerest hope and most earnest prayer, then I am not going to say good bye to you. Instead, I'll say, 'til we meet again, I'll be missing you.'"
I hope Tanya understands this because I really want to see her face when our Lord says to her..."enter in, my good and faithful servant. come and enjoy the joys and treasure of heaven."