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you know, it's amazing the people you meet who completely change your life in ways you couldn't imagine.
I'm laying down, trying to sleep and i think back to the summer where I went on my usual summer vacation trips with my old bestest amy to cocoa, and when her dad rented a pontoon boat. Thinking back, at that point in time I had no idea, the summer following i'd be spending 10 days in michigan with the love of my life everday on a pontoon boat, and I had no idea that Ashton even existed. It's just simply amazing the events and people that help lead us and introduce us to the people that make the most differences in our lives.
Speaking of which, I'm also thinking about this: My first cat was muffin, I loved her so much like of course, she was my first cat, then i get to thinking about my kitty tigger that i have now, i can honestly say - for as much as i love tigger, i dont think i love her as much as i loved muffin. Which goes to show, that could possibly happen with Ashton, i'm sure i can love again, but as much as i loved Ashton? not so sure.
Back to my first paragraph. you just never know what's going to happen, like this summer i could be in love, this summer i could be completely single, who knows. This november i could find the man of my dreams and fall even more in lvoe with him than Ashton, if that's even possible. This summer, I could be dead.
Speaking of dead...I've had a lot of dreams about guns, terrorists, and me dying. I'm getting a littttle freaked out.
I've got to wake up in 3 hours and take brandis brother to school. not cool. well time to go to bed...hopefully i fall asleep and not think too much about this whole "never know what happens" kinda thing. ugh.
goodnight ya'll <3
and, it really makes me wonder