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so this is a thinking entry....
I really hate trying to fall asleep cause I end up thinking way to much about scary things, depressing things, or happy things and they all keep me up for so long - just thinking, I hate it, so I try reading, going on myspace/facebook or updating this untill I just can't possibly stay awake any longer...and, well just tonight I tried falling asleep without really needing to and my mind wandered, which brings me to this journal entry/question.
So I'm laying here and my mind is replaying the first start of the preview for "the zodiac" a movie I really want to see which is unusual considering I hate scary movies -and it's the part where the couple is laying out on the feild and the zodiac killer shows up and kills both of them...then my mind wanders to like when my cousin died and my grandma (I'm not crazy or emo or anything, I'm honestly a very happy person with almost always happy thoughts) and then I started thinking about just death in general and God...and it makes me wonder; You know how it is said that God has a plan for us, and he knows what our lives will be like even before it begins? Well, I was wondering if God planned some of us to be murdered - like if that was in some certain peoples plan, like others pass away silently in their sleep, others die in car accidents, and others suicide or murder - did God plan for us to die that way, at that certain time in our lives? Or, has other people taken us away when our lives weren't nearly finished?
This entry is kinda really scaring me - very un-April like and now I probably won't be able to sleep for the longest time...maybe I shouldn't go see "The Zodiac".
On to happy things...
My valentines day was good! I woke up, didn't go to class haha, ugh...I need later classes or I need to stop sleeping in so late. Corey brought me over a dozen pink roses!! then I went to the gym with brandi, came home, got ready and alex picked me up from my house and he got me a dozen red roses and we went to dinner at kobes - which was fun! I enjoyed it very much :] I love my guy friends like crazy <3
I have been having this very serious throbbing aching pain behind my left eye and stretching to my temple, and today at the gym I had the most excruciating pain like my whole head felt like it was just gonna blow up if I kept working out, wtf to my head. So I'm going to go to a walk in eye clinic later on to get an eye exam. Which reminds me, I need to reschedule an interview at the Sears Calling Center, make sure my mom signs the FAFSA stuff, go get a recomendation letter from Ms. Castro, and all this good stuff...oh stuff to do. I can't wait untill I get a job.
K goodnight!
I really hate trying to fall asleep cause I end up thinking way to much about scary things, depressing things, or happy things and they all keep me up for so long - just thinking, I hate it, so I try reading, going on myspace/facebook or updating this untill I just can't possibly stay awake any longer...and, well just tonight I tried falling asleep without really needing to and my mind wandered, which brings me to this journal entry/question.
So I'm laying here and my mind is replaying the first start of the preview for "the zodiac" a movie I really want to see which is unusual considering I hate scary movies -and it's the part where the couple is laying out on the feild and the zodiac killer shows up and kills both of them...then my mind wanders to like when my cousin died and my grandma (I'm not crazy or emo or anything, I'm honestly a very happy person with almost always happy thoughts) and then I started thinking about just death in general and God...and it makes me wonder; You know how it is said that God has a plan for us, and he knows what our lives will be like even before it begins? Well, I was wondering if God planned some of us to be murdered - like if that was in some certain peoples plan, like others pass away silently in their sleep, others die in car accidents, and others suicide or murder - did God plan for us to die that way, at that certain time in our lives? Or, has other people taken us away when our lives weren't nearly finished?
This entry is kinda really scaring me - very un-April like and now I probably won't be able to sleep for the longest time...maybe I shouldn't go see "The Zodiac".
On to happy things...
My valentines day was good! I woke up, didn't go to class haha, ugh...I need later classes or I need to stop sleeping in so late. Corey brought me over a dozen pink roses!! then I went to the gym with brandi, came home, got ready and alex picked me up from my house and he got me a dozen red roses and we went to dinner at kobes - which was fun! I enjoyed it very much :] I love my guy friends like crazy <3
I have been having this very serious throbbing aching pain behind my left eye and stretching to my temple, and today at the gym I had the most excruciating pain like my whole head felt like it was just gonna blow up if I kept working out, wtf to my head. So I'm going to go to a walk in eye clinic later on to get an eye exam. Which reminds me, I need to reschedule an interview at the Sears Calling Center, make sure my mom signs the FAFSA stuff, go get a recomendation letter from Ms. Castro, and all this good stuff...oh stuff to do. I can't wait untill I get a job.
K goodnight!