Things are starting to look better
Things are starting to look better and I am glad! Joe and i have been talking more through email and messenger getting everything out into the open and for some reason, even if what he has to say hurts me, I feel better after I hear the truth. I don't just sit around depressing over things wondering why or how or whatever...because we are finally discussing those things and it's putting my mind to rest.
No matter how angry or hurt or whatever else emotion has went through me, I cannot quit loving him. I tried to see that as a bad thing like it was leaving me vulnerable to get hurt etc...but i dont see it as a bad thing anymore. Giving someone my love isnt a fault, it's the one thing in life that I can't fail at. Why? Because even if I want to I can't stop loving that person. And I don't think there is anything wrong with a forgiving or understanding nature if you are willing to endure tests and trials to show love to a person.
**added note**
However, theres a time to let go also if giving so much of your heart to a person only gets you hurt. It isn't easy...and it takes a lot of strength that only God can give. But, I have to beleive it is possible or I would go crazy.
No matter how angry or hurt or whatever else emotion has went through me, I cannot quit loving him. I tried to see that as a bad thing like it was leaving me vulnerable to get hurt etc...but i dont see it as a bad thing anymore. Giving someone my love isnt a fault, it's the one thing in life that I can't fail at. Why? Because even if I want to I can't stop loving that person. And I don't think there is anything wrong with a forgiving or understanding nature if you are willing to endure tests and trials to show love to a person.
**added note**
However, theres a time to let go also if giving so much of your heart to a person only gets you hurt. It isn't easy...and it takes a lot of strength that only God can give. But, I have to beleive it is possible or I would go crazy.