I Feel Stupid...
Why must a pregnant hormonal girl even get her hopes up about anything? All I get done doing is crying from all these stupid hormone changes then I go and get my hopes up about the baby's father and I possibly working things out and then i cry my eyes out when I get let down...again.
I try to get him to understand that I take things to heart a lot easier now and I don't even mean to. I can be hurt very easily thanks to these dumb pregnancy hormones. I try to explain that I don't mean to be this way I just can't help it.
He says that he loves me on the phone but he doesn't really. Why do I say that? Because a person who really loves you doesnt have to "think about it" because they already know they love u, flaws and all. So, why do I even try to beleive him when he says those words to me? Heck if I know...I am just a stupid hormonal pregnant girl who just wants someone...anyone...to love her unconditionally. God forgive me if I hoped it could be the baby's father.
I'm so sick of this damn pregnancy hormone crap! I'm ready to get this baby out of me so I can possibly go back to normal and be who I am! But dang it...if he doesn't want to be with me when I am at my worst (pregnant and hormonal) then I don't want to be with him. Because I intend to have more children some day and I be damned if I am gonna be with him for a few years just to have him turn around leave me the next time I get pregnant because he doesn't want to be with me when I am hormonal.
I try to get him to understand that I take things to heart a lot easier now and I don't even mean to. I can be hurt very easily thanks to these dumb pregnancy hormones. I try to explain that I don't mean to be this way I just can't help it.
He says that he loves me on the phone but he doesn't really. Why do I say that? Because a person who really loves you doesnt have to "think about it" because they already know they love u, flaws and all. So, why do I even try to beleive him when he says those words to me? Heck if I know...I am just a stupid hormonal pregnant girl who just wants someone...anyone...to love her unconditionally. God forgive me if I hoped it could be the baby's father.
I'm so sick of this damn pregnancy hormone crap! I'm ready to get this baby out of me so I can possibly go back to normal and be who I am! But dang it...if he doesn't want to be with me when I am at my worst (pregnant and hormonal) then I don't want to be with him. Because I intend to have more children some day and I be damned if I am gonna be with him for a few years just to have him turn around leave me the next time I get pregnant because he doesn't want to be with me when I am hormonal.