[Log] Kisarazu Ryou + Kisarazu Atsushi

[sushi_n_ribbon]

Who: Atsushi + Ryou
What: Continuing their habit of sneaking into each other's rooms at night, Ryou goes to see Atsushi...and they end up 'practicing' what every boy needs to know. Or so they say.
When: Sept 18th
Where: Atsushi's dorm room
Warning: PG-13 for kissing and I guess twincest lol shut up



The hour of waiting after curfew was always the one that passed slowest each day. Waiting around, hoping no teacher would notice he was still away, and then, when finally everything was quiet, he could sneak out and on the third floor. Ryou didn't mind the sneaking, the little thrill of possibly being caught was fun, but the wait for it was really something he could do without. Stupid school should just have put them into one room together, then they wouldn't have that problem. But they couldn't change the rules, as much as they wished for it, so every other night Ryou found himself into his brother's room. Really, sometimes he wondered how dense the teachers could be, for not even noticing them doing that - but all the better for them.

Not even bothering to tiptoe around Ryou quickly made his way over to Atsushi's door, knocking. It was kind of weird Atsushi's roommate had not complained yet, but even if he did, it was none of his concern where the two of them were sleeping anyway.

Atsushi had been waiting for the soft knock and opened the door almost immediately after the sound reached his ears--and luckily not Momoshiro's. Then again, Momo was a heavy sleeper...and not just 'sleep through my five alarms in the morning'-heavy, but 'sleep through my five alarms plus a hurricane plus an earthquake'-heavy. Yeah. But it was good for them.

Grinning mischievously, Atsushi let his twin in and shut the door lightly, cutting off the light from the hallway. The room was dark, but there was a faint amount of light coming from both his and Momo-chan's clocks. He took Ryou's hand, as usual, and lead him through the mess of clothes and books on the floor and to his bed--after all, his brother had just come in from the bright hallway, so it was probably difficult for him to see the junk hazards.

It was a good thing Atsushi was leading him, or he would have stumbled over the mess that was their floor for sure - he had had that experience when he came over for the first time, getting to know the floor a little closer, and didn't particularly care to repeat it. It was a good thing Atsushi's roommate slept like dead, Ryou's vocabulary had gotten quite colorful that time. "You know, you really should make a path through your mess sometime." Ryou spoke up in a quiet tone, sending his brother a half-assed Look. He wouldn't do it anyway, but he just had to say something.

Feeling more than seeing the bed bump against his legs Ryou flopped own, shifting closer to the wall to create more space for his brother. Really, these beds were too darn small. "So, how was your day?"

A soft snicker followed his brother's complaint and once his twin had situated himself, Atsushi followed. He pulled the blanket up over both of them and shifted a bit more to get comfortable, though he didn't mind how close the bed forced them to be. He half-whispered his reply, "It was ok... I'm still having problems in math...just a little." The way he said it made it obvious that 'just a little' meant 'I'm totally screwed and mom's going to KILL me.'

Ryou frowned at that. 'Just a little' in Atsushi-speak probably meant 'I'm totally failing and mom will chop my head off and feed my entrails to the pigs'. "I can really just help you if you want, you know." After all, he would like his twin to live a little longer than the next test he had. Shifting under the blanket he huddled a bit closer. It really sucked Atsushi was having such problems with math, what if their mother decided Evergreen wasn't good for him after all and sent him back to that catholic school thing?

Atsushi made a bit of a face in disapproval, "I wanted to prove I could do it on my own, but..." It was a lot harder here than at St. Rudolph. Or, at least, the teachers were more strict and the hope of making up points with lots of assignments was non-existent. "...Fine," he gave in, knowing Ryou would help him more than a tutor or teacher would. He moved a bit on his side, letting his twin get closer, and not minding when their legs intertwined slightly--it was like a human body pillow almost, and they'd done this hundreds of times since they were young, it never felt awkward.

Ryou smiled, leaning his head against Atsushi's shoulder. "'s not like we need to tell anyone." His brother's need to prove himself had always been stronger than Ryou's, though he sometimes wondered where that came from - not that it mattered anyway, Tsushi was awesome the way he was, if competitive or not. "You know, I really missed this." Just lying together, cuddling until they fell asleep... and he slept better with his brother by his side too, without any stupid dreams or stuff.

It was better this way, and even someone as desperate for independence as Atsushi could admit that. He let an arm drape over his brother as they held each other lightly, the warmth already tempting the need to sleep. "Ne..." He mumbled after a while in silence, "Ryou, did you ever go out and make new friends once I left?"

Just lying like this, warm and cuddling and silent, almost made Ryou drift off into sleep, until his brother spoke up again. "Mmh..." It wasn't really a question he wanted to answer, but he had been quite lonely during that time, another reason why he was so glad to have his brother back. "...I think it was only 'the twins' who really had friends back in Chiba." He simply hadn't bothered anymore after realizing that. If they couldn't accept that they were two people then that was their problem. Although he wouldn't have minded a real friend or two back then.

"Really?" Atsushi frowned in concern. He'd made a few friends at St. Rudolph, but got along with almost everyone. Then again, none of those people had known him as a twin from the first impression. Otherwise, it probably would have been difficult to see him as independently as they did. "That sucks, I thought for sure you'd have made some...or at least gotten a girlfriend or something."

"Huh?" Ryou sat up, nose scrunched up in disbelief. "What would I want with a girlfriend?" The, realizing where he was, he flopped down again, speaking in a more quiet tone. "Seriously, girls are way too bothersome in a relationship." Take them out for dinner, shower them with love, give them gifts every other day... no, he really did not want a girlfriend. "Don't tell me you had one."

Atsushi snickered into their pillow before giving his brother an amused look, "Really? I think girls are funny, and if you're nice to them, they're really sweet." He grinned, "I've not had one officially, but I did go on dates with a few on the weekends and stuff...nothing too serious." He nudged his twin lightly, "You'd make a good boyfriend, I think...if you weren't so grumpy kusukusu"

"I'm not grumpy." He shot his brother a sour look. Just because he wasn't all lovey-dovey-super-nice-and-smiling all the time didn't mean he was grumpy. And, even though Tsushi was right that girls could be sweet, it took a lot of effort to get them to be that way. So, he totally didn't want a girlfriend. And that was just because they were bothersome, not because the only person ever to have been interested had been male. "Dates, huh? What was that like?" He was sort of curious, he'd only ever read about proper dates, not had one himself.

"R...Right," Something in his voice kept it from sounding convinced. Perhaps it was the snickering. "Hmm, you wanna know what a date is like? I can give you tips if you want to impress someone." Atsushi poked at his twin's cheek and gave him a grin. "Is there someone you like? One of those Tanaka twins maybe?"

"You're making fun of me now." Ryou pouted, half turning away from his twin. The Tanaka twins of all people, there was just no way, ever. "And i don't need tips, I was just curious." It couldn't be, after all, that dates really were as mushy as described in those stupid romances. Though he wouldn't put it past Tsushi to lie to him and tell him about it exactly that way.

Atsushi's grin deepened, "Eh? I can let you know then..." He paused, looking thoughtful. "Well... it's like going out some place with a friend...only she's a girl, and you pay for everything. But you get to make her laugh and you talk, and if you're doing it right--she'll hold your hand or lean on you. It's a good date if you can both say you had fun at the end." He snickered, "Plus, it's funny to watch how people look at you when you're a 'couple'. Suddenly, everyone thinks you're either cute, or they envy you."

"Oh, of course, you pay for everything, and then you get to hold her hand." Ryou rolled his eyes. That was kind of an unfair trade, money against holding hands, which was kind of lame in itself. Though he supposed Tsushi was right about watching other people, even if he himself was one of those who were more annoyed at lovey-dovey couples than anything. To think his brother was one of those types too... Ryou grimaced.

"kusukusu Oh come on, you'd have fun. Are you nervous or something? You afraid of having to kiss someone?" His smile became somewhat mischievous after that comment. "Have you kissed anyone~?"

Okay, so that was totally not a valid question, they had been talking about Tsushi's dates, after all! And besides, if he hadn't dated, then how should he have gotten to kiss? Though if he admitted that his brother would tease him mercilessly... "O... of course I have." Well, and that didn't sound particularly convincing.

"Oh? Really?" Atsushi looked interested, suddenly curious. "What was it like then? Who was it?"

"I... uh... you don't know her." The ceiling suddenly seemed really interesting.

"Really??" Something in his tone was disappointed as much as it was impressed. "What was it like??"

Oh dear, he really was in a pinch here... what the hell were kisses like? "It was... uh... wet."

"Eh??" Atsushi covered his own mouth quickly and lay frozen for a moment in silence, straining to hear if he'd woken Momoshiro at all. After a few more tense minutes, he relaxed, realizing that his roommate was still very much asleep and that light snoring was real. "Eh?" He repeated much softer this time, looking over his twin in a mixture of awe and something else. "You must've gotten pretty serious then..."

"Sssh, not so loud." Haha, he really was in trouble now, wasn't he... dear, why had he said that? Now Tsushi thought he had snogged some girl senseless or something, and that was kind of worse than the truth. He didn't even like girls. Or maybe he did, but he really didn't want to kiss one, and now that Tsushi knew (or thought to know) he would probably try and set him up with someone, and that would be horrible. "...so maybe I kinda lied" he mumbled, burying his face in the pillow. Either way, teasing was better than Tsushi trying to set him up.

Atsushi was silent for a moment, something akin to relief washing over his features. He lightly hit Ryou on the upper arm after a while more. "Don't joke like that. It's serious stuff if you're seeing someone that seriously. I don't want to mess it up and try to set you up with someone else." He wasn't teasing and hadn't even thought of it "I'm kinda glad you're not though," he admitted softly.

Oh. So his brother hadn't been thinking along those lines anyway, that was a relief. He looked up again, smiling briefly. "I thought you might laugh at me." But if Tsushi wasn't going to then it was all good. Ryou snuggles back into his brother, quiet for a moment. "...ne... have you ever... you know?"

"Yeah," Atsushi admitted as one hand came to pet Ryou's hair. "...sorta. It was just on the cheek, so it's not like it really counts, I guess."

"Hmm... well, more of a kiss than I've had anyway." That was kinda unfair, he was the older brother after all, so he should have more experience!

"Do you want to practice?" It came out of nowhere, but Atsushi didn't seem surprised by it. This kind of thing had come up before at St. Rudolph. After all, the mind of a teenager was a complex and sometimes scary thing...

That... was kind of random. Ryou blinked. Practice meant kissing Tsushi, right? That could get embarrassing, since he knew nothing about kissing at all... but then again, neither did his brother, and what else were siblings there for than to help each other out. He shrugged. "Yeah, sure."

Atsushi grinned, "Ok, you get to play the girl first then. I've had at least some experience with girls, so I'll show you how and then you can practice." This could get a bit awkward if he thought about it too much, so Atsushi just cupped his brother's face and tilted his head slightly, leaning forward so their lips brushed lightly. It was weird that his heartbeat was this strong, they were only practicing. Oh, and they were twins for crying out loud. It's like kissing the mirror... Except Atsushi knew it was nothing like that.

"Oi, why am I always the gir--" Ryou's complained came to a sudden halt when Atsushi's lips brushed his own. That was... weird. But nice. Maybe the weird was just because it was his brother doing this, or maybe it was because his heart was beating so fast. But still, it was on the nice side of weird, and if they really practiced then maybe the weird would go away. Ryou lifted his head slightly, brushing his lips over Tsushi's again.

Ok, whoa. His pulse was totally too high for something that shouldn't matter at all. It was more nervewracking than when he'd kissed that girl's cheek. In fact, he was more nervous now than he'd been on all of his dates put together. Maybe this was a bad idea. It wasn't completely...not normal.. or anything, because he'd heard of it before, even casually --but somehow this was weird. Atsushi felt more complex than he'd ever bothered to feel in his life, and with a great deal of effort, he let his eyes fall shut and forced those thoughts away, focusing on the feeling of his lips working against Ryou's. It was gentle with inexperience, but it was nice at the same time. Atsushi didn't have to guess that his twin felt the same, it was obvious in the way he kissed back.

It was... strange, if he thought about it. Lying in bed, kissing his twin of all people, heart racing - though why, Ryou did not know, this was merely practicing, it wasn't like they were lovers or anything, so why wouldn't his heart stop beating so fast? And why... no, maybe he shouldn't think about this. Thinking made everything far too complicated, and right now they were merely trying to learn - but oh, it felt so much like he thought a real kiss should feel like, even though this was just Tsushi... no, thinking would get him nowhere. Making a small sound - almost frustrated - Ryou's eyes slid shut, just concentrating on feeling, for now.

Atsushi's hand reached up, running through long, black strands as his lips continued to move against Ryou's, lightly working them open. Really, they weren't lovers, they weren't dating, they weren't anything. Just brothers. Just twins. Just practicing. So why was it so comforting? Atsushi made a soft sound of his own, but it was more like a light moan than anything. He'd never wondered how soft his twin's lips were but now he found himself marvelling at how they felt. He pulled away slowly, letting them both catch their breath, lips just barely brushing against each other as they did so.

When Atsushi pulled away Ryou could just barely suppress the urge to follow and go right back to kissing. He hadn't thought it would feel this nice, hadn't thought about kissing at all, really, until Tsushi has brought it up. But those soft, soft lips against his own, it had felt so nice, he kind of found himself wanting to feel that again. And more practice was always good. Never mind that they were just brothers, if something felt nice then there was probably no harm in it. He reached up, softly tugging at a couple of strands of his brother's hair. "I think I need some more practice..." He hadn't intended to say that. Ryou frowned. He had just wanted to see what Tsushi would do now, but somehow it had just slipped out.

Eh? It took a moment for those words to register, and even longer for him to understand fully what they meant. Ryou wanted to kiss again? No. No, Ryou wanted to practice again. He wanted to learn how to kiss, so he wouldn't mess up on a date with a girl--if he ever managed to get one. Right. That's all it was. Atsushi swallowed back his nerves and smiled slightly, "Did that help any? I'm not sure how to play the girl if you want to practice, but..." But by all means, please practice. Something kept him from saying it, but he clearly wasn't against more of that feeling, even if it was his twin. No, especially because it was his twin. He'd come to the realization that doing this with anyone else would feel wrong, and yet it made no sense why this felt so right.

Ryou licked his lips, looking up at his brother with a concentrated face. Why was he feeling so nervous? This was just practice. No proper kissing or anything, really. No need to feel nervous about it at all. Now, if it had been a girlfriend or something, then he would have reason to.. yet somehow he wasn't sure he really did want to do this with anyone else. It would be kind of.. wrong, wouldn't it? Besides, he didn't like girls, and he didn't think he wanted to kiss one in the near future. "I think I'd like being the girl more." Oops, that had come out wrong.

Atsushi raised a brow before snickering, moving forward and resting his head on Ryou's collarbone, laughing softly into his shirt. "I..I told you that you were a girl." Well, more like he'd said Ryou looked like a girl, but same difference. He lifted his head to look at his twin, grinning in apparent enjoyment of some personal victory.

"Oh shut up, it's not funny." Ryou pouted, feeling his cheeks burn. Good thing the room was dark, his cheeks were probably glowing red. He hadn't meant it that way, and Tsushi totally knew it too. And now he was being laughed at, that was really unfair...

"It is so~" Atsushi teased in a half whisper, unable to keep the smile off his face. His hand moved to touch the side of his brother's face, and he snickered again at how warm it felt. "You're blushing~ I knew it kusukusu" He couldn't help but pick on his twin for it, just a little. After all, Ryou had practically set him up for it.

"Am not." Except he was, very much. Ryou resisted the urge to swat at Tsushi's hand for that, he didn't want to hurt his brother after all. That, and the hand felt kinda nice there... wait, what was he thinking? He could practically feel his blush growing darker. "So are we going to practice or not?" Changing the topic was always good. Even if the topic in question was related, but whatever.

"Are too," Atsushi whispered back. Before Ryou could counter again, he leaned in and pressed their lips together once more, his hand cupping his twin's face to keep him steady. From the way things were before though, Atsushi was sure Ryou wouldn't be moving or pulling back any time soon. Then again, it was a nice excuse to keep his hand there--Ryou's skin was soft too, which was kinda weird for a boy. No.. wait, nevermind. He was reminded of Mizuki and a few other boys he'd met with skin that was probably much softer and girlier. So it wasn't that weird. Ryou's hair, however, was probably the softest of any boy he'd ever met, or would ever meet, and for the moment, he was having a hard time remembering why he wanted his twin to cut it.

He still wasn't blushing, really. The blood in his body had merely decided to rush to the wrong parts, those being his cheeks and therefore making it look like he was blushing. It wasn't a real blush, honest. But... the feeling of his brother's lips on his own was far more important than denying some stupid blush. Stupid blush that wasn't there, of course. Honestly, it felt incredible, it made him feel like he never wanted Tsushi to stop, and most of all, it didn't feel much like practice, more like a real and proper kiss. His hand almost moved on his own accord, threading lightly through his brother's short strands of hair.

At some point, Atsushi had forgotten why they were doing this. It wasn't practice anymore. Or was it? He couldn’t tell, and didn't bother to linger on it. Instead, he continued kissing his twin, feeling the heat building in his own face at how much he was enjoying this. Much better than dating, hands down. The need for air suddenly reminded him he had to breathe to live, and he broke the kiss off quickly, breathing somewhat heavily in an attempt to calm his burning lungs. Whoa, yeah...definitely got carried away with that. He realized this as he buried his face in Ryou's neck, his long hair brushing against his skin slightly.

At some point during that kiss, Ryou knew his brain had shut down on him, leaving him only to feel and enjoy, not even taking notice, that this was supposed to be 'just practice' anymore, not even after they had pulled away for air. Breathing heavily he kept his eyes closed, the feeling of Tsushi's lips on his own still lingering. It was confusing, really. They had just wanted to practice, right? So why had this felt like so much more?

Atsushi was finding it hard to draw the line between 'platonic practicing' and the real thing. Really though, this was his brother. There was no way it could be more than just practice....right? Somehow, something at the back of his mind crazily wanted it to be real. Why, he couldn't fathom. They were twins. They were identical...for the most part. So why did he want to keep going? No matter how you looked at it--that was wrong. Atsushi pulled halfway out of the embrace, enough to look at his twin--or as much of him as he could see in the darkness. "So...Did that help any?" He was trying to remind Ryou, as much as himself, why they'd been doing this in the first place.

Help any? No, in fact it had made everything entirely too confusing. Because he had been enjoying this 'practice' far too much, and it was his brother he'd been kissing and that was veryvery wrong, except it didn't feel wrong... no, bad thoughts there. Ryou let out a shaky little laugh. "I guess it did." He was fairly sure though that Atsushi had realized something was off too... maybe felt the same? No, that couldn't be. There was just no way his brother could've seen this as anything else than practice.

Ryou was so bad at lying to him. It was obvious to Atsushi now that his brother had been thinking the same way as him--and perhaps even feeling the same way as well. He smiled slightly, a bit nervous though he hoped that would be hidden by the lack of light. "...That was...pretty good, you know." He paused, realizing how differently that could be taken. Would it be best for them to pretend they didn't feel this way? Probably. "I mean, for your first time kissing--you did well." It wasn't much better, but at least it was more clear as to what he meant.

It really took an effort not understanding that comment in a way he was sure Tsushi had not intended it to sound like. Ryou blushed lightly, just glad the night covered that up. "I guess you weren't too bad yourself..." He chewed at his lip. This too could be taken so very wrong "...so I guess if you find a girl she'll be happy." There, that was slightly better. Although he kinda didn't want his brother to find a girl... no, wait, what the hell was he thinking now. This was getting ridiculous.

Atsushi was almost tempted to make the joke of saying 'Well you look enough like a girl for me' but he decided to hold it back. This wasn't the best time for that, and the nervous, slightly awkward mood would make it sound wrong. Instead, he just smiled and poked at the side of his twin's face. "I can say the same for you then." He snickered, even if he wasn't completely amused with the idea of Ryou actually getting a girlfriend. "That is, if you can find one that will put up with your whining."

Ryou gasped dramatically, glaring at his brother. "I so do not whine." Even though he wasn't fond of his brother's teasing, it was far better than the awkward mood that had started building. "Anyway, you couldn't find one either, since you're way too evil for any girl to put up with." Although girls were evil too, but his twin surpassed anyone in evilness. But he couldn't deny that it was only his twin who'd been on dates so far, which he supposed would have been sort of frustrating if he had actually wanted a date. "And if I don't get one it’ll just be because they can't handle me being prettier." Was a good enough excuse anyway.

The lightened mood was a welcome relief, and Atsushi found himself striving to keep it that way. "Oh? But I've been on dates before, I'm pretty sure I can't be that evil then. He snickered slightly, tugging at his brother's hair lightly. "You may have a point though. Most girls don't want to date a guy with longer hair than them. Which is why you should cut it~"

"You might've been on dates, but you never got a girlfriend out of it, did you?" Ryou grinned, conveniently ignoring the comment about his hair. No, he was still not cutting it, whatever Tsushi said. "They met up with you for a day, realized how black your soul is and figured you were way too evil for them~" His grin widened as Ryou poked at Tsushi's cheek.

Atsushi tugged at his brother's hair again, though this time out of annoyance. Ryou did have a point there. "Well, most of the time it was a mutual thing. You know, like we'd rather stay friends because it's less complicated that way?" Sort of. Some of them had been like that. Some of them he just couldn't stand and vice versa.

"Would you stop pulling my hair out?" Ryou frowned. Obviously he had stricken true there, which was kind of sad, since he did want his brother to find someone, even though he didn’t want him to. And that didn't make sense, but it wasn't like anyone was listening to his thoughts anyway. "I'm sure you'll find the right one sooner or later though." He kind of hoped for later, but he was totally not saying that. Or thinking. Really.

"Ah, sorry!" Atsushi apologized, before snickering and messing with the end of a few strands, more gently this time. "Maybe I wouldn't tug on it, if there wasn't so much of it." He ignored the comment about 'finding the right one'. He really didn't care that he hadn't found a girlfriend yet. He told himself it was because he was still young, and a little immature, but honestly...right now...he wasn't sure why. He didn't want to think on it either. That was way to risky. He closed the distance again, moving back into the loose embrace they'd had before 'practicing'.

Ryou snorted, cuddling up to his brother. "Just because it's long doesn't mean there's more." Of course, he could to the 'leave my hair alone' routine, but he knew Tsushi knew that he wouldn’t cut the hair off willingly anyway, so there was no point. "... I guess we should sleep though... school tomorrow after all." He wasn't really feeling sleepy anymore, but if they didn't do that soon then they'd fall asleep during classes or something. "Don't want you snoring through math again after all."

"Hey!" Atsushi protested softly, though he was grinning regardless. "I only fall asleep in math because the teacher's voice is so dull." Nevertheless, he found himself cuddling up to his brother in return. "Still though, some sleep would be nice...you know, for other classes." Not to mention that they had to wake up before Momo did, so Ryou could leave in the morning without questions.

"And because you have no interest in the subject whatsoever." He rolled his eyes, still not believing how much his brother slacked off there just because he didn't like the subject. Ah well, that was Tsushi. Ryou smiled, legs tangling with his brother's when he shifted, trying to find a comfortable position. "Sleep, then..."

"Yeah, that too," Atsushi laughed softly, half into the pillow, half into the fabric of his twin's shirt. This warmth was quite comfortable actually. He was already beginning to feel heavy with the need to sleep. "Good night, Ryou-niichan." He whispered with a slight grin, though he knew his brother couldn't see it.

"Night.. sweet dreams..." it wasn't much more than a murmur, but he was sure his brother had heard him anyway. Curled up to Tsushi Ryou hoped sleep would come soon, not leaving him alone with his thoughts for all that long.