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Thursday Erin took me to see a Hypnotist show at West Campus where i saw a ton of people from CSMS. The Show was hilarious. Erin's gonna get me the guys number and website and stuff and I already talked to Mrs. Valentino about it so we might have him come to our school sometime. It definitely cheered me up. Friday, I went to tech crew and had a blast. Adrienne, Anne, Cat, Alex and all hung out in the men's bathroom the majority of it cuz they didn't need us. lol. Lets just say, The five of us in a MEN'S bathroom? No one is safe. After i got home, Broderick was there so I hung out with him for a little bit then he left and Peter came over. I Finally got to see all of Kill Bill Vol. 1. lol i was so excited. Peter is so nice, he brought over all these Magazines for me. After Peter Left, Broderick Came back and we hung out for a little bit.
Saturday, I went to Tech again. We hung up the Teaser that Cat Alex and I have been painting for the last week and let me tell you, it looks soooo good. All of Tech Crew actually applauded Cat Alex And I. they've never done that before. But it looks amazing. BIG NEWS!!! I'm Up for Student Tech Director!!!! I'm sooo excited I hope i get it so badly. Cat And Alex are up for it also though. After Tech, I went out to dinner with my family, and some family friends. I have to admit, I did have a good time. I didnt think i would but I did. Then i came home watched TV for a few hours and then sleep.
Things have gotten alot better then they were on Wedensday night. Thursday, The majority of the day i was a wreck. I ended up going to the nurse during Third period, talking to Mrs. Bergin, and falling asleep because i didnt get much sleep on Wedensday night. Then during Fifth period, becuase it was Mr. Sole's Birthday, we sang to him and i started to laugh. I realized then that i shouldnt really let him do this to me. After that, I was ok for the rest of the school day. Then Erin Came over after school and told me what happened in school. I didnt cry. lol i was proud of myself. Then Erin left to let me shower and stuff when she came back i was in the computer room and had just opened up my LJ. When she came in, i was in the process of reading what he wrote. After i read it, i just started crying. like, histerically. Erin is such a good friend to me, she just gave me a hug the whole time and let me cry on her shoulder. I calmed down, and then we went to the hypnotist show which cheered me up alot.
I stopped eating. I didnt eat dinner on wed, and on thursday all i ate was 3 bites of a sub and half of a slurpee from 7-11. Then i got sick Thursday night. from Wedensday till like Friday night, the more I thought of it, the sicker i felt. My mom let me sleep in on Friday and then drove me to school. Friday I finally ate half a slice of pizza from school for lunch and some pasta for dinner once Peter came over. I only cried once on friday, so i was very happy about that. Yesterday, I woke up and i just didnt wanna do anything. I didnt want to get up, i didnt want to go to tech, but i did. and i'm glad i did. It kept my Mind off things. Anne had to cheer me up and one point though, but after that I was ok.
Today was the first morning that I woke up and was just like... Ok. Like, i dont feel depressed, or angry or anything. Not that I ever was angry at any point but w/e. Theres points where i still feel depressed, but i havent yet today. Last night when we went out to dinner, i had to stay in the car for a few minutes cuz I started to cry again. Then when i was done, i still didnt wanna go in, so i Sat there and told myself over and over again that he's not worth it. And silly as it sounds, i started to say it outloud, and the more i said it, the better i felt. Becuase you know what? Hes not worth my tears anymore. I've cried for hours over him and I need to get over him. Some ways, i have already. I'm not still expecting a phone call or a text message.
But you know what really gets me mad? Is the fact that I didn't see it comming. Like i said in my last update, i didnt expect us to date forever, but i expected a warning before we broke up. My warning? was 10 minutes before on the bus ride home from school. Another thing that pisses me off is that He told me he loved me a few times on Tuesday. I've told him numerous times never to tell me he loved me if he didnt feel that he did. so he lied to me. That pisses me off too.
I still have a a few questions to ask him. So if your reading this, expect a phone call within the week. I was gonna call him today, but i have an English Essay to write and then I'm going to Babysit. I would tomorrow, but tomorrow is Valentines Day and I rather not see him or talk to him then. Tuesday I have Tech. So i figure either Wed or thursday I'll give him a call.
He really hurt me pretty badly. But all good things come to an end and honestly? Starting today, I'm not going to cry anymore. Of course there will still be times where i just sit around and feel like i'm going to, but i wont. Becuase Someone who hurt me like that is not worth crying over.
Saturday, I went to Tech again. We hung up the Teaser that Cat Alex and I have been painting for the last week and let me tell you, it looks soooo good. All of Tech Crew actually applauded Cat Alex And I. they've never done that before. But it looks amazing. BIG NEWS!!! I'm Up for Student Tech Director!!!! I'm sooo excited I hope i get it so badly. Cat And Alex are up for it also though. After Tech, I went out to dinner with my family, and some family friends. I have to admit, I did have a good time. I didnt think i would but I did. Then i came home watched TV for a few hours and then sleep.
Things have gotten alot better then they were on Wedensday night. Thursday, The majority of the day i was a wreck. I ended up going to the nurse during Third period, talking to Mrs. Bergin, and falling asleep because i didnt get much sleep on Wedensday night. Then during Fifth period, becuase it was Mr. Sole's Birthday, we sang to him and i started to laugh. I realized then that i shouldnt really let him do this to me. After that, I was ok for the rest of the school day. Then Erin Came over after school and told me what happened in school. I didnt cry. lol i was proud of myself. Then Erin left to let me shower and stuff when she came back i was in the computer room and had just opened up my LJ. When she came in, i was in the process of reading what he wrote. After i read it, i just started crying. like, histerically. Erin is such a good friend to me, she just gave me a hug the whole time and let me cry on her shoulder. I calmed down, and then we went to the hypnotist show which cheered me up alot.
I stopped eating. I didnt eat dinner on wed, and on thursday all i ate was 3 bites of a sub and half of a slurpee from 7-11. Then i got sick Thursday night. from Wedensday till like Friday night, the more I thought of it, the sicker i felt. My mom let me sleep in on Friday and then drove me to school. Friday I finally ate half a slice of pizza from school for lunch and some pasta for dinner once Peter came over. I only cried once on friday, so i was very happy about that. Yesterday, I woke up and i just didnt wanna do anything. I didnt want to get up, i didnt want to go to tech, but i did. and i'm glad i did. It kept my Mind off things. Anne had to cheer me up and one point though, but after that I was ok.
Today was the first morning that I woke up and was just like... Ok. Like, i dont feel depressed, or angry or anything. Not that I ever was angry at any point but w/e. Theres points where i still feel depressed, but i havent yet today. Last night when we went out to dinner, i had to stay in the car for a few minutes cuz I started to cry again. Then when i was done, i still didnt wanna go in, so i Sat there and told myself over and over again that he's not worth it. And silly as it sounds, i started to say it outloud, and the more i said it, the better i felt. Becuase you know what? Hes not worth my tears anymore. I've cried for hours over him and I need to get over him. Some ways, i have already. I'm not still expecting a phone call or a text message.
But you know what really gets me mad? Is the fact that I didn't see it comming. Like i said in my last update, i didnt expect us to date forever, but i expected a warning before we broke up. My warning? was 10 minutes before on the bus ride home from school. Another thing that pisses me off is that He told me he loved me a few times on Tuesday. I've told him numerous times never to tell me he loved me if he didnt feel that he did. so he lied to me. That pisses me off too.
I still have a a few questions to ask him. So if your reading this, expect a phone call within the week. I was gonna call him today, but i have an English Essay to write and then I'm going to Babysit. I would tomorrow, but tomorrow is Valentines Day and I rather not see him or talk to him then. Tuesday I have Tech. So i figure either Wed or thursday I'll give him a call.
He really hurt me pretty badly. But all good things come to an end and honestly? Starting today, I'm not going to cry anymore. Of course there will still be times where i just sit around and feel like i'm going to, but i wont. Becuase Someone who hurt me like that is not worth crying over.