Dec 12, 2010 00:38
Sometimes I'm just confused about everything.
About lives and all that. Is the world gonna end in 2012? I'll like Mother Earth to inform me first before dying, because that way, I'll be able to live my last day as fulfilling as possible. Those optimistic people would probably think that I'm just saying dumb stuff and shouldn't be wasting my time thinking all about this and should make full use of everyday, every single minute and second, not only making use of my last day. Well I don't really care. Argh. Even I'm confusing myself now.
I don't use Livejournal, but I have the sudden urge to make a post, kinda dumb huh.
Also - what's happiness? Every time when we were told to write our ambitions down in class, my friends will definitely write "to be happy" without fail. I just don't get it. Like seriously, if you're happy all the time you won't even know about those painful experience, those nervous feelings when the butterflies are flapping their wings in your stomach, the moments when you just feels like dying, the moments when you feel like you're going to fail, and even embarrassing moments. You'll only be happy all the time. What's the point? Only by going through all the painful experience then we'll be able to understand how happiness is like, isn't it? By only being happy in our entire we can't possibly know that our life is amazing, we just don't know. Get my point? Lives are full of obstacles, only when we truly overcome it can we then succeed and understand happiness and truly treasure it, and not take happiness for granted without knowing a single fucked up situation in our life. I never wrote down "to be happy" before in my ambitions list and I only remember about it when I saw my friends writing it. Well to me, the most awesome feeling in life is when you actually succeed in overcoming a freaking big obstacle and finally get what you want. Now, that's what I crave for.
Peace. :)
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