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I think ive finally realized how badly i really do miss my dad... and how for some reason i have this undying love for him that will probably never go away... i think when ur born, and ur parents always talk about that feeling, where u never knew u could love someone so much, i think its the same for the kid too... and mines just too strong to let go of, i guess... yea well, i had a pretty bad dream... where my dad killed himself infront of me... i dont feel like explaining bcuz i just told the whole story... but it was very... realistic, and i was very upset, and when i woke up, i had this like trench of sadness pound on top of me... i hope its not a sign that he really did kill himself... bcuz he deff. would have killed a part of me with him... and thinking about it now, i feel sort of incomplete... i hope it doesnt mean anything :'(... bcuz some people have dreams of things that happen b4 or while theyre happening... and ive done it b4... i wish my mom would just call him to see if hes okay... i really really really miss him, more than anything, and this hurts really bad...
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