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i went to this hardcoreish show last night instead of doing work. it was so great. my friend usually goes to indie shows, and is used to being the most hardcore kid, and last night, he got beat. we so went into the fucking mosh pit and it was so intense, we got so thrashed. my whole body is in so much pain today. and i have horrible bruises, so it looks like im abused. i wore my watch. bad idea. my one wrist is so messed up. i seriously got punched all over my body. and i think someone even smacked their face into the back of my head. im so used to actual circle pits. this was just mad big guys punching every where and bouncing off the crowd. and of course, i got stuck between really fat guys who totally squashed me. ah, it was great. apparently, though, one of the bands was like a skinhead band. ooo shit. haha. i then got locked out of my room. i went up to the pent house to study, came back down at 4 and the door was locked. i attempted sleeping in the pent house on a couch but there's a ghost up there, and i kept hearing weird noises, so i didnt sleep much. i came back down and got into my room at 730, and so went to sleep, woke up at 1230, and realized, im not going to class today. so i didnt go to class. i stayed in bed until like 130ish, and then sat in the park for 2 hours. now im doing nothing.
alex and i had a talk. and im i dont know
im just really drained, physically and emotionally. im so not able to do anything.
ramadan started and i dont know... its weird not being home for it.

ah i want to just sleep and never wake up right now. im so exhausted by life.

chris went back to cali. couldnt do NYU. alex moved out of brittany and is now at 3rd north.

i need friends that are girls, i think.

i hate feeling like this. AHOAJOJADOfjODFjksdhfwhfw8ur0824702ujks v

i think i want to go eat a burrito.