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I had another very bad night... as soon as I turned the TV off everything began to hurt so much again... but then for the first time I tried to think about different, beautiful things and after a while it worked. I banned all the bad thoughts and tried to realax. I realized that I don't HAVE to think about all the bad stuff for instance as a way to punish myself and that I can release the tension... I mean... I don't know how to explain but there is a way to hide away in your dreamworld... I thought reality had locked me up and that there were no way out... although I don't like denying...
We had a brunch today with friends at our place. It was pretty nice... Martina and me went for a walk after eating, to smoke... yay for cigarettes!
In the afternoon I'll be at the haircutter... we'll see, maybe I'll take some pics afterwards...
We had a brunch today with friends at our place. It was pretty nice... Martina and me went for a walk after eating, to smoke... yay for cigarettes!
In the afternoon I'll be at the haircutter... we'll see, maybe I'll take some pics afterwards...