Feb 02, 2006 17:51
whenever i think of my friends i seem to get crazy pissed off. lately ive been trying to look inside myself, why do I get pissed off? i think the root is jealousy. i see all my friends moving into college, succeeding, moving out into life while im stuck in some half way house far away from where i want to be. that of course suggests that im not willing to do the footwork. its true, i havent in the past but i think things are changing. Of course, im still thinking like a junkie and everyone should know who i am. that one was me being self centered. watch, i might do another trick. as awkward as i feel i still miss them. i miss them more than i do my dogs, any of you who know my dogs knows how awesomely i love them. so at this point i want to feel old comfort, but i cant. i need to find other comforts for me.
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