Live [OneShot]
“Jaejoong! No!” Yunho shouted at me anxiously.
He grabbed the knife out of my hand and thrashed it to the other side of the marbled floor. It made a clanging sound as it hit the floor and slid a few feet across from where it had landed. He kneeled down so he was right besides me, embracing me, comforting me. He rocked me back and forth, telling me things were going to be okay and that he would take care of me. A cold wet sensation trickled down my back as Yunho cried.
Was there something wrong with Yunho? Is he all right?
I sat there with him by my side, wondering what was wrong and why he couldn’t stop crying. Then I looked over to the knife that was thrown onto the floor, covered with blood. I raised my hand; only to see the bloody cuts covering myself…
~~~~~
“Who told you to do this?! Who?!” Yunho grabbed my hands and anchored me to the wall.
“They did…them…” I looked into his eyes.
“There was nobody in this house except for you and me Jae…no one, how could…” His voice became softer as it drifted off. “Don’t lie to me Jae…please don’t do this!”
I didn’t reply, but looked down onto the ground where I saw my foot fidget around in my slippers. I felt something warm press into my cut around my wrist.
“Yunho…you’re…you’re hurting me…” I cringed.
Yunho slowly released his hands from my wrist. He put his hand on my shoulder and lightly pushed me out of the doorway as he opened the door and walked out. I leaned back on the white wall behind me and looked at my cuts. They did tell me to do it…and I’m not lying. Why won’t Yunho believe me?
I felt my legs shaking as I walked to my room. I held on tightly to the wall and made my way into my room. I lifted up the blanket that lay across my bed and climbed in. I covered my face with the bed sheets, hoping to fall asleep soundly this time…without ‘them’ bothering me tonight. It seemed like the darkness had engulfed the room as the time went by…
Jaejoong…
Jaejoong…
You have to do it…or we won’t forgive you…
We will never forgive you…you have to do it…
He’ll get hurt if you don’t…
I woke up in an instant, breathing heavily. I wiped away my sweat and prepared to go outside into the living room. I stopped when I heard voices coming from the kitchen.
“Changmin…I really don’t know what to do…” Yunho continued, “He says someone is making his do all those things…but…I don’t know what to believe now.”
I backed up from where I was standing as I continued to listen.
“I know…yea…but…I can’t do this anymore, he needs help Changmin, but I can’t be the one to help him. I’ve tried…no…I’m sure he took those pills from the doctor…” Yunho hung up and gently set the phone back onto the table in front of him. He rubbed his temples and took a sip of his drink. I heard him take a deep breath as I backed away into my room.
I closed the door softly so that it didn’t make any noise and locked it. I slid down to the floor across from the door. I held out my hands and looked at the pale orange bottle, filled with white little pills. I stared at them and thrashed them onto the floor, cracking the bottle. I continuously looked at my wounds…the ones that ‘they’ had made me do. I sat there thinking, what did they want from me? What did I do? It got so bad to the point I didn’t want to sleep anymore…I would do anything to stay awake. Anything except for those dreadful pills…I never took them and I never will. As long as those whispers disappear and leave me be.
I sat there, trying hard to stay awake, but it must’ve been an hour or so until I couldn’t take it anymore. I simply gave up…
You must do it! You must! Or he will…die…
Jaejoong…
I can hear those voices swimming in my head, just waiting for me to break. I opened my eyes, happy to realize that those voices have disappeared.
Jaejoong!
I jumped. What the hell?! I’m awake…but…how could this be…?
Do it…do it! The knife is just right there…if you won’t do it…he will die.
Do it Jaejoong!
Multiple voices appeared in my head, I felt so dizzy that I felt the need to vomit…but there was nothing I could’ve done right now.
Murderer…you’re just a murderer!
“Stop it! Just stop it!” I shouted, putting both of my hands over my ears.
For the first time I felt scared for my life. It’s like the whole room was rotating except for me. I kneeled onto the floor, hoping for everything to be over.
“Jaejoong?” I heard Yunho say. “Open up.”
I felt no need to let him in…no…it was just too much. And plus…he wouldn’t believe me anyways…
Jaejoong is a murderer!
‘They’ kept shouting that…and yet I had no clue why. It just…wouldn’t stop.
“Stop it! I can’t take this anymore! You want me to do it…FINE!” I lifted myself up from the ground and tried hard to walk over to my nightstand.
“Jaejoong! Whatever it is that you’re trying to do, don’t do it! Open up Jae! Jae!!!”
I ignored Yunho and grabbed hold of the knife and fell onto the floor. I held it close to my neck, the very tip just waiting to sink in and let the blood spill out. I felt cold streams of tears running down my eyes to my cheeks.
“Is this what you want?! For me to be like this!?” I yelled out at the top of my lungs. The knife trembled in my hands as I breathed heavily.
“Jaejoong?! Stay put!” I heard Yunho shout as he banged on the door.
I couldn’t take it any longer. Voices still rang in my head, thumping pulses of my veins as my heart beat faster and faster. It wasn’t any longer until they finally got what they had wanted…
~~~~~
-BOOM-
Yunho busted through the locked door and ran over to me.
“Jaejoong! Oh god…no…stay with me ok? Everything is going to be fine. You hear me Jae?!” Yunho shook me and threw the knife across the room.
He looked terrified when he had realized what I had done.
“Why…Jae why did you do this!? Why didn’t you take those damn pills?!”
I could hardly talk, blood spilling out of the large cut across my neck.
“I can sleep peacefully now Yunho…finally…” I smiled lightly.
“Oh god Jae…” Yunho hugged me tightly. “Don’t leave me like this…I need you…”
Tears flowed uncontrollable down my eyes as the time went by.
“I’m sorry Yunho…” I felt my limbs drop and dangled lifelessly.
This is what I had longed for…even if it meant losing something or someone. No more voices and no more demands, just nothing but silence and pitch-black darkness. I’m really sorry Yunho but…I guess this is the end for me. This is when my life really starts…a brand new “life”…without them…even if I am dead. I guess it wasn’t possible to be with you after all…sorry.
~END~
First dbsk fic so be nice! :D I thought it sucked though. Well, hope ya like it! :]
He grabbed the knife out of my hand and thrashed it to the other side of the marbled floor. It made a clanging sound as it hit the floor and slid a few feet across from where it had landed. He kneeled down so he was right besides me, embracing me, comforting me. He rocked me back and forth, telling me things were going to be okay and that he would take care of me. A cold wet sensation trickled down my back as Yunho cried.
Was there something wrong with Yunho? Is he all right?
I sat there with him by my side, wondering what was wrong and why he couldn’t stop crying. Then I looked over to the knife that was thrown onto the floor, covered with blood. I raised my hand; only to see the bloody cuts covering myself…
~~~~~
“Who told you to do this?! Who?!” Yunho grabbed my hands and anchored me to the wall.
“They did…them…” I looked into his eyes.
“There was nobody in this house except for you and me Jae…no one, how could…” His voice became softer as it drifted off. “Don’t lie to me Jae…please don’t do this!”
I didn’t reply, but looked down onto the ground where I saw my foot fidget around in my slippers. I felt something warm press into my cut around my wrist.
“Yunho…you’re…you’re hurting me…” I cringed.
Yunho slowly released his hands from my wrist. He put his hand on my shoulder and lightly pushed me out of the doorway as he opened the door and walked out. I leaned back on the white wall behind me and looked at my cuts. They did tell me to do it…and I’m not lying. Why won’t Yunho believe me?
I felt my legs shaking as I walked to my room. I held on tightly to the wall and made my way into my room. I lifted up the blanket that lay across my bed and climbed in. I covered my face with the bed sheets, hoping to fall asleep soundly this time…without ‘them’ bothering me tonight. It seemed like the darkness had engulfed the room as the time went by…
Jaejoong…
Jaejoong…
You have to do it…or we won’t forgive you…
We will never forgive you…you have to do it…
He’ll get hurt if you don’t…
I woke up in an instant, breathing heavily. I wiped away my sweat and prepared to go outside into the living room. I stopped when I heard voices coming from the kitchen.
“Changmin…I really don’t know what to do…” Yunho continued, “He says someone is making his do all those things…but…I don’t know what to believe now.”
I backed up from where I was standing as I continued to listen.
“I know…yea…but…I can’t do this anymore, he needs help Changmin, but I can’t be the one to help him. I’ve tried…no…I’m sure he took those pills from the doctor…” Yunho hung up and gently set the phone back onto the table in front of him. He rubbed his temples and took a sip of his drink. I heard him take a deep breath as I backed away into my room.
I closed the door softly so that it didn’t make any noise and locked it. I slid down to the floor across from the door. I held out my hands and looked at the pale orange bottle, filled with white little pills. I stared at them and thrashed them onto the floor, cracking the bottle. I continuously looked at my wounds…the ones that ‘they’ had made me do. I sat there thinking, what did they want from me? What did I do? It got so bad to the point I didn’t want to sleep anymore…I would do anything to stay awake. Anything except for those dreadful pills…I never took them and I never will. As long as those whispers disappear and leave me be.
I sat there, trying hard to stay awake, but it must’ve been an hour or so until I couldn’t take it anymore. I simply gave up…
You must do it! You must! Or he will…die…
Jaejoong…
I can hear those voices swimming in my head, just waiting for me to break. I opened my eyes, happy to realize that those voices have disappeared.
Jaejoong!
I jumped. What the hell?! I’m awake…but…how could this be…?
Do it…do it! The knife is just right there…if you won’t do it…he will die.
Do it Jaejoong!
Multiple voices appeared in my head, I felt so dizzy that I felt the need to vomit…but there was nothing I could’ve done right now.
Murderer…you’re just a murderer!
“Stop it! Just stop it!” I shouted, putting both of my hands over my ears.
For the first time I felt scared for my life. It’s like the whole room was rotating except for me. I kneeled onto the floor, hoping for everything to be over.
“Jaejoong?” I heard Yunho say. “Open up.”
I felt no need to let him in…no…it was just too much. And plus…he wouldn’t believe me anyways…
Jaejoong is a murderer!
‘They’ kept shouting that…and yet I had no clue why. It just…wouldn’t stop.
“Stop it! I can’t take this anymore! You want me to do it…FINE!” I lifted myself up from the ground and tried hard to walk over to my nightstand.
“Jaejoong! Whatever it is that you’re trying to do, don’t do it! Open up Jae! Jae!!!”
I ignored Yunho and grabbed hold of the knife and fell onto the floor. I held it close to my neck, the very tip just waiting to sink in and let the blood spill out. I felt cold streams of tears running down my eyes to my cheeks.
“Is this what you want?! For me to be like this!?” I yelled out at the top of my lungs. The knife trembled in my hands as I breathed heavily.
“Jaejoong?! Stay put!” I heard Yunho shout as he banged on the door.
I couldn’t take it any longer. Voices still rang in my head, thumping pulses of my veins as my heart beat faster and faster. It wasn’t any longer until they finally got what they had wanted…
~~~~~
-BOOM-
Yunho busted through the locked door and ran over to me.
“Jaejoong! Oh god…no…stay with me ok? Everything is going to be fine. You hear me Jae?!” Yunho shook me and threw the knife across the room.
He looked terrified when he had realized what I had done.
“Why…Jae why did you do this!? Why didn’t you take those damn pills?!”
I could hardly talk, blood spilling out of the large cut across my neck.
“I can sleep peacefully now Yunho…finally…” I smiled lightly.
“Oh god Jae…” Yunho hugged me tightly. “Don’t leave me like this…I need you…”
Tears flowed uncontrollable down my eyes as the time went by.
“I’m sorry Yunho…” I felt my limbs drop and dangled lifelessly.
This is what I had longed for…even if it meant losing something or someone. No more voices and no more demands, just nothing but silence and pitch-black darkness. I’m really sorry Yunho but…I guess this is the end for me. This is when my life really starts…a brand new “life”…without them…even if I am dead. I guess it wasn’t possible to be with you after all…sorry.
~END~
First dbsk fic so be nice! :D I thought it sucked though. Well, hope ya like it! :]