untitled drabble + updates
I suddenly got inspired to write a little something when I was on tumblr. It's quite different from what I'm used to write and for once, it doesn't contain fluff and banghim.
Concerning my current projects: I have an on-going AU Banghim/OT6 one-shot, but I'm kind of lacking inspiration for now. I know it's useless to try and force myself so I'm just waiting to get inspired again. I also started another one-shot, AU school, with my favorite crack ship........Yukwon x Himchan or lovingly called Yuchan. (all thanks to the RP I'm in ♥) but I also lack of inspiration for this one, so I'm just going to wait.
Thank you again for the people that read my stories. Anyway, enough talked, here is the little drabble.
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When you walk out of your house, the sun is shining brightly in the wide blue sky. You look so sad, and I wonder, how can you not smile when everything is so beautiful around you. Tears are rolling down your cheeks. I want to reach out and erase them, I want to tell you that everything will be okay.
But I can't.
I've been following you for days now. I wonder what you are thinking of when you stop by the park and sit down on that bench, always the same one. I wonder what you feel when you look out of the window of that coffee shop, your slender fingers wrapped around a hot mug. I wonder what you want when you go inside that library and sits down for hours on the floor, books surrounding you. I wish I could ask you all those questions.
But I can't.
I look at you from the distance as you sit down on the grass and stare at the city. Or do you even stare at something? Your gaze is so empty. You stopped crying but your eyes show me all the pain that you're feeling. It's almost the night, shouldn't you go back to your home? Why do you stay here for hours? I want to hug you and warm up your heart.
But I can't.
Weeks then months are passing by and I've still yet to see you smile. You used to be so pretty when you smiled. My heart stopped beating so many times, even if you weren't looking at me. And I felt so lucky every time this smile was for me. Why did it stopped then? What has changed? I think I know the answer, but I wish I was wrong. I want to make you smile again.
But I can't.
I can't. I can't do a thing for you. It's killing me. I want to tell you to keep living, to not give up. You deserve to live. You have to! You start to run, so I run after you. I want to grab your arm and kiss you and reassure you. But I can't. I can't. Things could have been so different.
I can't do a thing but cry. So I cry, and you stand under the heavy raindrops for hours. And I keep crying until, finally, a smile appears on your face even if you're crying too.
Have you understood? I wonder. You smile and the rain slowly stops because I find myself smiling as I look at you. You're beautiful. And I love you.
You know, there's an old saying which says that when it's raining, the one you love is crying. I cried for you and it rained. And you smiled.
I may not be from this world anymore, but I'll always look at you. I'll always love you.
And, when you look up at the sky with a smile, I know that you understood.
Concerning my current projects: I have an on-going AU Banghim/OT6 one-shot, but I'm kind of lacking inspiration for now. I know it's useless to try and force myself so I'm just waiting to get inspired again. I also started another one-shot, AU school, with my favorite crack ship........Yukwon x Himchan or lovingly called Yuchan. (all thanks to the RP I'm in ♥) but I also lack of inspiration for this one, so I'm just going to wait.
Thank you again for the people that read my stories. Anyway, enough talked, here is the little drabble.
~ ~ ~
When you walk out of your house, the sun is shining brightly in the wide blue sky. You look so sad, and I wonder, how can you not smile when everything is so beautiful around you. Tears are rolling down your cheeks. I want to reach out and erase them, I want to tell you that everything will be okay.
But I can't.
I've been following you for days now. I wonder what you are thinking of when you stop by the park and sit down on that bench, always the same one. I wonder what you feel when you look out of the window of that coffee shop, your slender fingers wrapped around a hot mug. I wonder what you want when you go inside that library and sits down for hours on the floor, books surrounding you. I wish I could ask you all those questions.
But I can't.
I look at you from the distance as you sit down on the grass and stare at the city. Or do you even stare at something? Your gaze is so empty. You stopped crying but your eyes show me all the pain that you're feeling. It's almost the night, shouldn't you go back to your home? Why do you stay here for hours? I want to hug you and warm up your heart.
But I can't.
Weeks then months are passing by and I've still yet to see you smile. You used to be so pretty when you smiled. My heart stopped beating so many times, even if you weren't looking at me. And I felt so lucky every time this smile was for me. Why did it stopped then? What has changed? I think I know the answer, but I wish I was wrong. I want to make you smile again.
But I can't.
I can't. I can't do a thing for you. It's killing me. I want to tell you to keep living, to not give up. You deserve to live. You have to! You start to run, so I run after you. I want to grab your arm and kiss you and reassure you. But I can't. I can't. Things could have been so different.
I can't do a thing but cry. So I cry, and you stand under the heavy raindrops for hours. And I keep crying until, finally, a smile appears on your face even if you're crying too.
Have you understood? I wonder. You smile and the rain slowly stops because I find myself smiling as I look at you. You're beautiful. And I love you.
You know, there's an old saying which says that when it's raining, the one you love is crying. I cried for you and it rained. And you smiled.
I may not be from this world anymore, but I'll always look at you. I'll always love you.
And, when you look up at the sky with a smile, I know that you understood.