the end
cant speak right now can barely type. after eight years and for various reasons..mostly distance... I am now single. I feel so lost...i feel so cold yet i feel like i am burning up with fever. I feel so very numb, yet a great pain grows within. I know I will live, life will go on, my friends will make sure of it, but right now all I can feel is the pain and loss and numbness. I want roll myself into a tight ball and disappear until this feeling goes away. I cant imagine going to work, doing anything really. as i sit here tears soaking my face, my little gigi sits on my shoulder licking the top of my head. animals are truly sensitive or maybe my head is just salty. I am going to sleep, or at least try