what the hell?
If i seriously bang my head on something one more time before the week is over, i'm going to start believing in fate, and possibly a higher being, and i'm going to be FURIOUS with him. I've managed to, in the following week:
- bang my head at least 5 times, 4 of which were on my car
- step in gum, but in a way that it literally was stretching from my shoe to my hand
- have to pay a chunk of money to constantly fix my car which can't seem to stay in good condition
- drop food repeatedly while at work (i do catering, so it gets to be a hassle when you're lugging things back and forth)
- over-order food, so that I'm out money consistently, every day of the last week, because my customers are god-knows-where.
- other small things that would normally be something you could blow off if it weren't for the fact that it just kept happening.
Ever since a certain someone sort of ruined the good flow I had going, I've been in this fate-like funk where bad things just keep happening in small but constant amounts. I normally wouldn't really let it get to me but i'm starting to crack under this pressure.
and as if this weren't enough to deal with the last week, i've just now managed to end it with that same person leaving me stunned by their inconsideration and overall blindness towards a situation.
I have to thank them though.
During the few times when I actually do dwell on the present situation, I find myself emotionally in flux, where before I was simply an emotionally numb, desensitized boy of the generation. We're all growing up to be some kind of fucking zombie and I'm glad that something was able to inspire actual anger, incredulity, and hopelessness. I just wish it hadn't been her.
I truly do.
- bang my head at least 5 times, 4 of which were on my car
- step in gum, but in a way that it literally was stretching from my shoe to my hand
- have to pay a chunk of money to constantly fix my car which can't seem to stay in good condition
- drop food repeatedly while at work (i do catering, so it gets to be a hassle when you're lugging things back and forth)
- over-order food, so that I'm out money consistently, every day of the last week, because my customers are god-knows-where.
- other small things that would normally be something you could blow off if it weren't for the fact that it just kept happening.
Ever since a certain someone sort of ruined the good flow I had going, I've been in this fate-like funk where bad things just keep happening in small but constant amounts. I normally wouldn't really let it get to me but i'm starting to crack under this pressure.
and as if this weren't enough to deal with the last week, i've just now managed to end it with that same person leaving me stunned by their inconsideration and overall blindness towards a situation.
I have to thank them though.
During the few times when I actually do dwell on the present situation, I find myself emotionally in flux, where before I was simply an emotionally numb, desensitized boy of the generation. We're all growing up to be some kind of fucking zombie and I'm glad that something was able to inspire actual anger, incredulity, and hopelessness. I just wish it hadn't been her.
I truly do.