Watcherman

Nov 05, 2007 13:37

I've got a few things to say, some things you might know while others might come a surprise to you ( Read more... )

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lux_et_umbra November 8 2007, 14:20:22 UTC
This is a lie you've made yourself believe.

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pookin November 8 2007, 14:21:38 UTC
Then what would you say is the truth?

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lux_et_umbra November 8 2007, 17:29:22 UTC
You don't know who you are-- it seems you barely have a clue and wish to find answers in making excuses to make up for it.

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pookin November 8 2007, 18:18:35 UTC
I think I know pretty well who I am, I know my past and my present. Now that might not be the same thing others see, and I might not know what all of them see either. I know some see me as an ass sometimes because I just stop caring while some think the complete opposite. Its just the perspective of the viewer.

And as what I said about my past and what I acted like isn't and excuses. Its what I know I did and this goes far beyond high school years.

Tho I know what I am at this moment, even if I can't summon the right words to describe it, its who I will become that I really don't know.

Who/what I shall become was the whole purpose of this. Not to state what I have become, but what I might/hope to become.

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lux_et_umbra November 8 2007, 18:34:09 UTC
And where does maturity and integrity fit in?

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pookin November 8 2007, 20:16:52 UTC
You speak of things that shape as your grow, that you have no control over. These traits are sharpened by time and helps point the way to what you become.

One can not be told what is mature, one must live it and develop its own meaning. Which could make it mean anything. Tho man has giving it a general meaning of acting like an adult, there is no where written what and adult must act like.

So these traits are part of it all, they are what drives this post and all these comments.

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lux_et_umbra November 8 2007, 21:26:47 UTC
Maturity and integrity are key in one's backbone and have to be controlled in order to sustain oneself. You should know that best from your negative experiences. However it seems you have forgotten that and are getting ready to go through such negative experiences again... just as headstrong and ignorant as before. Only your friends will tell you such things, remember that. You've gone outside the circle (of friends) before and received no such insight; and as you stumbled along they (those outside your circle) only took advantage of your blindness. Now I see you saying such things and I wonder, perhaps it is time for you to take another fall-- but I don't think you'd like that very much based on your first fall ( ... )

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pookin November 8 2007, 22:16:52 UTC
*claps* Now thats the Sasha I remember. I have always cherished your words, even if now and then I got short tempered at the negative they sometimes held ( ... )

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lux_et_umbra November 9 2007, 18:13:28 UTC
I am going to let it go again... I have told you about it before but I guess you just do not care at all-- it was a joke (to you). I do not think you ever even considered thinking outside the boundaries of "love" (lust) enough to understand that maybe all that person needed was help. But I am sure it will come up again... it is not like the future is not wide open (and you seem to manage to bring it up out of the dead more often than necessary).

You are a good person, you just need time to grow up. However, I will warn you when you need stopping because right now I can see that your views will lead you down a road that has destroyed you before. So just watch out and try to be more open (to different views)...

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pookin November 9 2007, 18:24:41 UTC
Thanks.

I am kinda out of words at the moment. So thats all I can say.

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lux_et_umbra November 12 2007, 04:41:20 UTC
I really have no interest in talking to you until you figure out what I was even referring to, just to let you know.

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pookin November 17 2007, 22:38:43 UTC
Sasha, I dunno if I will ever known what you where referring to. I know I have stabbed you a few times now and again. Never intentionally, but still less by my own hands. I've tried my best to right my wrongs but it isn't possible ( ... )

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lux_et_umbra November 18 2007, 12:51:29 UTC
E-mail me. It isn't as complicated as you think.

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vahn_ryu November 8 2007, 18:37:55 UTC
you are who you let others see you as.

and nobody knows what they are to become, but, unless they don't like the way they feel presently, it's never going to change.

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pookin November 8 2007, 20:21:06 UTC
No it doesn't change when they don't like what they feel presently. They change to feel something better then before, even if before was good enough.

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vahn_ryu November 8 2007, 20:41:29 UTC
pretty much what i just meant, josh: selfishness.

you can't avoid it and you can't hide from it, as hard as you might try. so stop living in fantasy world because it's just natural human behavior. i don't understand how you can freak out so bad about this mask and shackles shit when, literally, nobody cares.

this is an example of something you fix by yourself, you don't need to announce it to everyone because they don't see things your way. it's almost as if you're crying out for attention.

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