Watcherman

[pookin]

I've got a few things to say, some things you might know while others might come a surprise to you

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[mbem]

you think too much
just shut the fuck up
get outta your house
meet some hot random chick
fuck her then dump her
woot
lolll

and we all changed, just accept it and move on

[dragoncowboy]

"What I say out loud might be more then most people ever think of, but it really is nothing compared to the things I keep locked up."

This quote bugged me. Do you recognize that everyone hides a part of themselves away, not just yourself?

[pookin]

Yes I do know that. It was more of the fact that I do seem to give off the impression of being very open, but I don't. It had nothing to do with how much someone else does or doesn't hide part of themselves.

[dragoncowboy]

The part I quoted reads like you are comparing yourself to other people, in that you are more thoughtful than them (and that's just in what you tell). So you don't believe that? That was my only concern.

[pookin]

I am comparing myself to other people. I might be a little over the top. I dunno if the word thoughtful is the right word, I can say I have a lot of thoughts, but each of there meaning can be pointless. It more of saying I have a lot of information running through my head, more then your average Joe.

But its all comes down to what I believe and there is no hard facts to prove it wrong or right.

[my_introspect]

I think u r awesome :) And I miss you a bunch.

[pookin]

I miss you too <3

[lux_et_umbra]

This is a lie you've made yourself believe.

[pookin]

Then what would you say is the truth?

[lux_et_umbra]

You don't know who you are-- it seems you barely have a clue and wish to find answers in making excuses to make up for it.

[pookin]

I think I know pretty well who I am, I know my past and my present. Now that might not be the same thing others see, and I might not know what all of them see either. I know some see me as an ass sometimes because I just stop caring while some think the complete opposite. Its just the perspective of the viewer.

And as what I said about my past and what I acted like isn't and excuses. Its what I know I did and this goes far beyond high school years.

Tho I know what I am at this moment, even if I can't summon the right words to describe it, its who I will become that I really don't know.

Who/what I shall become was the whole purpose of this. Not to state what I have become, but what I might/hope to become.

Re: small bit of wisdom?

[pookin]

Thanks for the words. Tho I still think everyone over reacted to what they all thought I wrote. You actually said it without knowing. Which was "i think its a part of accepting yourself for who you are and learning not to let others influence you. and also part of not giving a damn about anything but your goal of becoming a better you."

I under stand what you mean about friends... And I know what your talking about. I just know a lot of things happen to people and their is many disappointments on both sides. I feel bad saying this but I know I have somewhat of a lengthy list. And I have tried hard to make due for them but everyone sees the world in their own color.

Your a good woman, I'm glad Sasha has you there for him. I don't think I can every really be there for him (In a friends way) that he has expectations of. Tho I don't think I will be anyone's expectations besides myself.

So take care of my old friend for me, because I'm unsure what will come to past.

Re: small bit of wisdom?

[pookin]

Heh, I almost said girl, but you aren't one.

I guess conflicting would be the best word for us, but I think a sense of understandably and acceptance can over come it. What shall come is what shall come.