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For those who wish to know what is going on....
Apparently, I haven't been showing enough of myself in my work. I'm too much in my head when I'm onstage. It appears that people's concerns were addressed to me, but I didn't do anything about it. That fact of the matter is, I was trying to get better at not thinking about what I was doing and just feeling. However, none of the faculty "saw" the work I was doing and assumed I didn't care.
FUCK.....THAT!
Sorry, momentary lapse of self control.
Because they didn't take the time to see me try to improve myself I get kicked out. Granted my improvement was a slow process and it's only a two year degree program, but I didn't know it was serious enough for dismissal. Maybe I should have tried more to talk with the faculty about my troubles. The problem is, I didn't feel comfortable doing that because I felt under constant scrutiny. I just wanted to prove that I could do it.
I am not completely without blame, but my grades were satisfactory as far as the degree requirements are concerned, and I was working on my problems with the process itself. However, all that doesn't matter now.
I am going to move on from this and bust my ass to prove them wrong. I don't need a BFA to get what I want in life. All it was going to do was make things a fraction less difficult. I can achieve all I want to achieve without that stupid "F" between my "B" and "A". I will move on from this and work hard.
Thank you everyone for your love and support. Even from the most surprising of sources.
Peace out.
Apparently, I haven't been showing enough of myself in my work. I'm too much in my head when I'm onstage. It appears that people's concerns were addressed to me, but I didn't do anything about it. That fact of the matter is, I was trying to get better at not thinking about what I was doing and just feeling. However, none of the faculty "saw" the work I was doing and assumed I didn't care.
FUCK.....THAT!
Sorry, momentary lapse of self control.
Because they didn't take the time to see me try to improve myself I get kicked out. Granted my improvement was a slow process and it's only a two year degree program, but I didn't know it was serious enough for dismissal. Maybe I should have tried more to talk with the faculty about my troubles. The problem is, I didn't feel comfortable doing that because I felt under constant scrutiny. I just wanted to prove that I could do it.
I am not completely without blame, but my grades were satisfactory as far as the degree requirements are concerned, and I was working on my problems with the process itself. However, all that doesn't matter now.
I am going to move on from this and bust my ass to prove them wrong. I don't need a BFA to get what I want in life. All it was going to do was make things a fraction less difficult. I can achieve all I want to achieve without that stupid "F" between my "B" and "A". I will move on from this and work hard.
Thank you everyone for your love and support. Even from the most surprising of sources.
Peace out.