Grumpy as hell
No good reason. Well, some. And, I ate way too much junk today, after I resolved to try and get back into shape and went for a short swim, spent 30 minutes on an eliptical trainer, did stomach crunch thingies, and walked a mile home. Don't even ask how much unhealthy fattening food, it was a ton.
Venting:
And, next week I get to visit JM's parents. I'm nervous. This is the first interaction since out break up and getting back together. I hate needing to spend time with people who don't really like me for reasons that have little to do with me and everything to do with what I'm lacking. And, I'm not looking forward to spending time with yet another set of parents that think I'm too fat. I already have one of my own. And JM is really annoying me--well all the things he does that normally annoy me a little have been annoying me a lot. And, JM's mom wants to suck all my time in NY leaving none to visit my own parents and friends. They're not bad people--I'm just not a Jewish doctor like JM's last serious girlfriend. And, JM's mom seems to be totally averse to meeting my parents, which makes me not want the parents to meet at all because, although they are nutty and bizarre in their own way, my parents deserve to be treated better than that. I suspect JM's mom will do her very polite and nice because she has to thing that she does with me that makes me feel so uncomfortable and unwelcome. JM doesn't see it and thinks it's all in my head. I'm pretty sure I might be guilty of exaggerating, but not making things up.
Venting:
And, next week I get to visit JM's parents. I'm nervous. This is the first interaction since out break up and getting back together. I hate needing to spend time with people who don't really like me for reasons that have little to do with me and everything to do with what I'm lacking. And, I'm not looking forward to spending time with yet another set of parents that think I'm too fat. I already have one of my own. And JM is really annoying me--well all the things he does that normally annoy me a little have been annoying me a lot. And, JM's mom wants to suck all my time in NY leaving none to visit my own parents and friends. They're not bad people--I'm just not a Jewish doctor like JM's last serious girlfriend. And, JM's mom seems to be totally averse to meeting my parents, which makes me not want the parents to meet at all because, although they are nutty and bizarre in their own way, my parents deserve to be treated better than that. I suspect JM's mom will do her very polite and nice because she has to thing that she does with me that makes me feel so uncomfortable and unwelcome. JM doesn't see it and thinks it's all in my head. I'm pretty sure I might be guilty of exaggerating, but not making things up.