the weekend, last night, today, forever
i was gonna write about sex, i had so much to say about it last night, but it's gone now.
oh maybe its not all gone. it's just really private and you probably don't want to hear it.
but maybe i'll just say it anyway cuz i don't have close friends anymore, nearby at least, so i'll just have to gross out the internet. but i guess i have to start studying so not right now.
life is heavy. ny was heavy. coming back here was heavy. tonight was heavy. doesnt help that i have a test tomorrow, the final practical exam tomorrow and the day after, and the written final exam next week (or thurs if i so choose.) i need a vacation. and a break from this and that and everyone and everything. give me something easy and carefree and transparent. give me something genuine or someone who can handle the truth. give me complete knowledge so i can feel in control or a sense of safety so that i don't need to. give me hugs. why do hugs heal everything?
i'm on 3 hrs sleep with an hour nap. i'm on caffeine. i'm on fear that you're gonna do something harmful. i have a cold and cant breathe. my charger is dead again after 3 diy repairs and i can't listen to my ipod. i'm on whining. i can't get off the internet. i'm going to take charge. ok. i'm ok. things are good in general. just tired and stressed and sick and worried. i hope you don't do anything. i hope you feel better cuz pretty much that's my biggest concern right now. but there's nothing i can do for you. i tried and will continue to try my best and i remain here for you. dont do anything stupid.
oh maybe its not all gone. it's just really private and you probably don't want to hear it.
but maybe i'll just say it anyway cuz i don't have close friends anymore, nearby at least, so i'll just have to gross out the internet. but i guess i have to start studying so not right now.
life is heavy. ny was heavy. coming back here was heavy. tonight was heavy. doesnt help that i have a test tomorrow, the final practical exam tomorrow and the day after, and the written final exam next week (or thurs if i so choose.) i need a vacation. and a break from this and that and everyone and everything. give me something easy and carefree and transparent. give me something genuine or someone who can handle the truth. give me complete knowledge so i can feel in control or a sense of safety so that i don't need to. give me hugs. why do hugs heal everything?
i'm on 3 hrs sleep with an hour nap. i'm on caffeine. i'm on fear that you're gonna do something harmful. i have a cold and cant breathe. my charger is dead again after 3 diy repairs and i can't listen to my ipod. i'm on whining. i can't get off the internet. i'm going to take charge. ok. i'm ok. things are good in general. just tired and stressed and sick and worried. i hope you don't do anything. i hope you feel better cuz pretty much that's my biggest concern right now. but there's nothing i can do for you. i tried and will continue to try my best and i remain here for you. dont do anything stupid.