JDS has nothing more to offer me

[pomellofellow]

I came to the realization of how much my group of friends has diminished some months ago, it just never felt so bad until today. There are days when it seems that there is not one girl i know who i can talk to about anything. There are days when i feel like im invisible to people who i thought liked me, where i'll say hi to them in the halls and

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[masturbassist]

Dude, I really think it has nothing to do with the fact that you're reletavely new to the school. I've been hee since 1st grade, and I feel the same. There are many times I just feel like a 3rd wheel, like I'm just pushed off to the side, except the people I hang out with, I've known since my first few years at JDS, but something fucked up, and I got pushed aside. Of course, that could be my own paranoia (and I think I am a little more paranoid than most people, until a few years ago, I would always run upstairs after turning off the lights in my basement, and sometimes I still do, but rarely).

I can't really give you the kind of advice you want (which i the kind I want), which is some simple trick I can do to make everythign great. Not feel like I'm being pushed off, get all the babes, etc. But I have decided that I do need to figure out where I fucked up, and when I get into college, do it all differently. This is one problem I think exists in JDS. We go here for 12 years, and the whole way through we know the same people, have the same friends, and we know everythign about them. For 12 years, if we make an fool of ourselves, we have to live with it. At public school, every few years, you switch, and you get to start over, and I think that's something wonderful that we lose at JDS.

Oh, and if there are ever times what I don't respond to you in the halls, it's because of ADD (unlike most people who blame things on it, I actually have it), I just don't realize you've said anythign until you've walked past me.