Never been so happy to wake up
OK. Whoa. So let's start off with last night. I made an appearnace at a Gulliver event, yes the annual dance show. The girls all look great, it was just soooooo weeeiiirrrrddddd. Not only to see everyone in the audience either, but just trying to explain to them what my year has been and settling with an "it was good!". When that is hardly an adjective I'd use to describe it. I don't even know how to descibe what my life has been, when I'm in Miami, I don't even remember what my NY life is. It's sad, but there is definetely a huge divide. It's not like I'm even the same person. I know that sounds dramatic, but I truly feel like I'm living two lives. Being so involved in school and leaving that microcosmal world where everything was so important, lettin go of the "big fish small pond" syndrome (as corey put it) and then jumping in the pond a year later and feeling like this foreign-fish-observer. It's like a drug, if you're gonna stay away...STAY AWAY. Going back brings you, unwillingly, back into a world where you remember what its like to be high on validation. You don't want it but a part of you needs it. I wish I could find some sort of balance. Ah well, enough of that.
Oh my god. SCARIEST, CREEPIEST, EERIEST DREAM EEEEVVVVEEERRRR. I had insomnia last night, I guess after the night's festivities. So I didn't get down till real early in the morning, I woke up close to ten and called to cancel plans cause I was just too tired. Then I went back to bed and woke up around 12:30. In between that time, myself and my family were attacked by "devil worshippers" in klu klux klan robes, but in black, and they moved really slowly throughout the house, and on the street, but took things from us of value (I was able to grab my ipod on the way out). But most importanly they threatened our lives and no one ever came to our rescue. But it wasn't like a blatant, quick attack. They did really sneaky things and went under cover and tried to use trickery and showed us what they were going to do with us on animals. It was really horrific. Then, while we were under watch by the female devil worshipper, I removed her robe from her face while my sister and mother and I tried to teach her what a soul was. By the end of the dream she understood when I asked her, "do you cry in private and pretend to be happy around your husband?" and she nodded and started tearing up. Then I said, "Well, that's your soul. Your soul is sad." "You are killing our souls." There was hope that we were released cause there was a freeze frame of a face that understood before I woke up.
Maybe it was the sushi. Gonna go to lunch now but be sure to hug my mom on the way out.
Oh my god. SCARIEST, CREEPIEST, EERIEST DREAM EEEEVVVVEEERRRR. I had insomnia last night, I guess after the night's festivities. So I didn't get down till real early in the morning, I woke up close to ten and called to cancel plans cause I was just too tired. Then I went back to bed and woke up around 12:30. In between that time, myself and my family were attacked by "devil worshippers" in klu klux klan robes, but in black, and they moved really slowly throughout the house, and on the street, but took things from us of value (I was able to grab my ipod on the way out). But most importanly they threatened our lives and no one ever came to our rescue. But it wasn't like a blatant, quick attack. They did really sneaky things and went under cover and tried to use trickery and showed us what they were going to do with us on animals. It was really horrific. Then, while we were under watch by the female devil worshipper, I removed her robe from her face while my sister and mother and I tried to teach her what a soul was. By the end of the dream she understood when I asked her, "do you cry in private and pretend to be happy around your husband?" and she nodded and started tearing up. Then I said, "Well, that's your soul. Your soul is sad." "You are killing our souls." There was hope that we were released cause there was a freeze frame of a face that understood before I woke up.
Maybe it was the sushi. Gonna go to lunch now but be sure to hug my mom on the way out.