I love that complete me not completely poem. that 1 and the one about being heart-raped or whatever are like my two favs. this entry is a little fucked up as usual lol-jk u know i <3 you. No really though, i wouldnt be posting if this 1 didnt speak to me in some way especially. I like reading ur thoughts and if u u published these little essay things in a book i'd prob buy it. R u in town???
It's so frustrating coming from studio and feeling really alive there, in a way inexplicable to others, of course, and feeling deadened otherwise. I think we have to remember that if other people could understand what it feels like, they would think we're even crazier than we already are for not making any money, because it hurts a lot. I think actors have to be a little (or a lot) masochistic.
ps- when other people on my flist make long entries, I often just skip over them. But I love reading your entries because they are so hauntingly beautiful and thought-provoking.
this entry made me tear up a little. and as usual i don't know why. well, i mean i have an idea of where i'm coming from but usually my emotions come and go very radically. oh god, i wish i knew too. sometimes i think it would be so easy to be really simple minded. like, i know that sounds horribly pretentious and i try to actively avoid sounding like this, but i have a friend who is near and dear to me and she doesn't think that much. she thinks enough to live happily. and then i think i would hate that because i hate complacency and ahhh cycles. i hear you in a different way. i'm hoping that with all of the thinking and growing i'll reach points of clarity before my spans of blurry wanderings. hoping hoping hoping. hope is so powerful and ahhh i'm crying again, kelly! you're awesome and i shouldn't be this candid in a comment and i'll probably re-read this and think what the fuck? but oh well. much loves
Ahh I totaly know what u mean about sometimes wishing you were simple minded. I say that all the time (and also fear soudning pretentious which i dont think it is). Sometimes I envy people who are content just "gliding through" life, who don't care if they don't achieve something monumental or even die trying, who are perfectly complacent basically "being normal". This is horrible but it makes me sick to think of someone seeing me as normal.
I love when you are candid in comments btw. Thanks for ur priceless input. I love the livejournal world, truly. I wouldnt give it up for anything. ur the best. I miss and love.
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I love when you are candid in comments btw. Thanks for ur priceless input. I love the livejournal world, truly. I wouldnt give it up for anything. ur the best. I miss and love.
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