The cruise is over...
and I'm sad. I look forward to the Lupus Cruise every year. And yet again, I was definitely not disappointed this year. It was an amazing time, and I loved getting to see fans/friends, singing for them, singing with my brother, and spending some quality time with my siblings and my parents. I think Mama tried to hog my husband, but hey, I think he rather enjoyed it. Hehe. Mama loves him, she really does. Although I think I heard her mutter something in Spanish about wanting to fatten him up a bit. I may or may not have laughed about that. (Okay, I laughed. A lot.)
I got to sing for these wonderful people who gave up time and money to come cruise with the Doroughs. It was such a wonderful time, and I loved seeing their faces, and listening to them sing along to my brother's gorgeous voice. I thought I may have even seen a few people sing along with me, and--it was overwhelming! And gratifying. It made me feel like maybe--just maybe I'm not so bad, after all.
I sang "We Will Meet Again" and "I Will Love You Forever", along with "Via de la Rosa". My brother did "Free From Within", which was so amazing. It was one of the few times I've ever seen him sing it, and I swear it has gotten more wonderful since the last time I heard it.
He also did some new song that he's been hiding from me. He dedicated it to Mama, and she cried. But Howie? Why did you not TELL me about this song!? I don't even remember the name of it now, because I was too busy listening to him sing, but geez. It's going to be amazing.
He got lots of requests for BSB songs, and he rather obliged. He did practically all the songs he had big solos on, and he did them just as wonderful as always.
But of course, my favorite part was getting to sing "Fly To Heaven" again. I love that song with every bit of me. Yeah, it makes me sad sometimes, but when I think of her, and the good that we're trying to do in her name and honor, sometimes it's worth feeling that sadness and pain. I wish sometimes I didn't HAVE to feel that pain, that one deep down in my heart, but all in all, maybe it'll truly be worth it someday. That is what keeps me going on that.
Shane asked me just the other day why I don't talk about her much anymore. And I was taken aback, because I didn't realize I don't! It was like an icy cold slap. I broke down in tears, and I talked about her, our childhoods, my memories of that bad couple of years, my pain, everything. And Shane was so strong. He had tears in his eyes, but he was strong, and he understood. He listened, and he comforted. I am a lucky, lucky woman.
So yes, the Cruise was wonderful. Fans got to see Howie in his swim outfits, which I swear I didn't laugh at (*snickers*).
Good times, this past week. I missed you all terribly, but I am home now. And I'll try not to slack off again.
I got to sing for these wonderful people who gave up time and money to come cruise with the Doroughs. It was such a wonderful time, and I loved seeing their faces, and listening to them sing along to my brother's gorgeous voice. I thought I may have even seen a few people sing along with me, and--it was overwhelming! And gratifying. It made me feel like maybe--just maybe I'm not so bad, after all.
I sang "We Will Meet Again" and "I Will Love You Forever", along with "Via de la Rosa". My brother did "Free From Within", which was so amazing. It was one of the few times I've ever seen him sing it, and I swear it has gotten more wonderful since the last time I heard it.
He also did some new song that he's been hiding from me. He dedicated it to Mama, and she cried. But Howie? Why did you not TELL me about this song!? I don't even remember the name of it now, because I was too busy listening to him sing, but geez. It's going to be amazing.
He got lots of requests for BSB songs, and he rather obliged. He did practically all the songs he had big solos on, and he did them just as wonderful as always.
But of course, my favorite part was getting to sing "Fly To Heaven" again. I love that song with every bit of me. Yeah, it makes me sad sometimes, but when I think of her, and the good that we're trying to do in her name and honor, sometimes it's worth feeling that sadness and pain. I wish sometimes I didn't HAVE to feel that pain, that one deep down in my heart, but all in all, maybe it'll truly be worth it someday. That is what keeps me going on that.
Shane asked me just the other day why I don't talk about her much anymore. And I was taken aback, because I didn't realize I don't! It was like an icy cold slap. I broke down in tears, and I talked about her, our childhoods, my memories of that bad couple of years, my pain, everything. And Shane was so strong. He had tears in his eyes, but he was strong, and he understood. He listened, and he comforted. I am a lucky, lucky woman.
So yes, the Cruise was wonderful. Fans got to see Howie in his swim outfits, which I swear I didn't laugh at (*snickers*).
Good times, this past week. I missed you all terribly, but I am home now. And I'll try not to slack off again.