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雨后的城市寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位它空
着在等谁
我拉住时间它却不理会
有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰
风停了又吹我忽然想起谁
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁
心暖了又灰世界
有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类
爱收了又给我们都不太完美
梦作了又碎我们有几次机会 去追
不晓得为什么爱又稀少又昂贵
云在半空中被微风剪碎
回忆也许美可是正在飞走对不对
啦啦...
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁
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After falling in, and out of love this time... Successfully (if I'd say so myself) getting out of it. I'm not sure if I'm ready to love anymore. It has been so hard trying to forget someone, so hard trying to pick yourself up when somebody whom you thought loved you lifted your hopes so high. So hard to piece the broken heart back when he slammed it on the floor, thinking it was just a toy... A toy. And denying that he ever treated you as a toy. Maybe this is good. I've finally opened my eyes to see what he has been treating me.
I told him once, don't treat me like a toy. He said no. To think I was so in love and gullible to believe he didn't.
I asked my mum the other day, have you ever thought, when you were young, what will you do if you didn't get married and you were getting old? She said she never thought of that. Well, I have. I've decided though it's good to have a soulmate to walk through life with you, you can survive without one too. And if life decrees that I have to do mine alone, I'm up for it. I can spend the money I earn, I can lead the life I want, I can live in my pretty house without being afraid of anyone messing it up for me...
The only thing I'm scared of is gatherings when everyone brings their spouses and I have none. Anyway. Point is... I don't mind staying single. For now, and for the future I can see.
xx
I didn't do what I planned for myself. Kinematics today! Must do it!!!