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[polevaultergirl]

oh man so much shit has happened in the past month that i dont even realy know where to begin.....well things are somewhat over between jumbo and i. in an odd way im glad b/c im just tired of i gues dealin with his shit. but i mean i love him to death. i honestly do. i would give everything i had to just see him happy. but now hes busy courting the girl hes liked since this past summer. which is cool, b/c she probrably makes him wayyyyyyyyy happier than i do. and i know it too, b/c its always arguing and shit when im with him. well not always but for a good portion we're always arguing. this is a good thing that could have happened to me b/c it gives me the freedom to do and date who i want during college. and yeah mikey......tat means u still owe me two and a date :D

in a way it makes me sad though, b/c i know that he decided to end it between us so he could go and like yeah be her in a sense. but its like i cried over it and now i have to learn from it. and i will. i will move on and make something of it. and if later on we wind up together then it was meant to be otherwise watever......

ill write more later on i gtg shower now :p