more stress
i wish there was a way i could just dump all my thoughts and feelings faster on here, and just be done with it.
i'm extremely wiped out, like always, but i need to put this down and get it out.
i'm struggling in my relationship, it's been a constant roller coaster and i'm tired of it. i'm tired of being the punching bag and getting ran over.
i swear anxiety is contagious at some point because her's is wearing off on me. I can't help but feel defensive now. I guess that's just the state of this broken relationship.
tonight it was being begged to be broken up with.
i said no, you break up with me if thats what you want, or go home and take sometime to yourself.
i fear things aren't going to recover, but I still hope and dream so. but deep inside me, i feel so tired.
i'm tired.
i'm tired of struggling, tired of fighting, tired of feeling like i've made so many wrong choices in my life and have ended up no where.
dad is slowly becoming really old, insanely fast compared to what I thought. He's 71, but acts like he's 85. That's really hard on me. still no friends, but still no time to give them anyways because my broken cycle.
fuck this is hard
i'm extremely wiped out, like always, but i need to put this down and get it out.
i'm struggling in my relationship, it's been a constant roller coaster and i'm tired of it. i'm tired of being the punching bag and getting ran over.
i swear anxiety is contagious at some point because her's is wearing off on me. I can't help but feel defensive now. I guess that's just the state of this broken relationship.
tonight it was being begged to be broken up with.
i said no, you break up with me if thats what you want, or go home and take sometime to yourself.
i fear things aren't going to recover, but I still hope and dream so. but deep inside me, i feel so tired.
i'm tired.
i'm tired of struggling, tired of fighting, tired of feeling like i've made so many wrong choices in my life and have ended up no where.
dad is slowly becoming really old, insanely fast compared to what I thought. He's 71, but acts like he's 85. That's really hard on me. still no friends, but still no time to give them anyways because my broken cycle.
fuck this is hard