diary of the negative

[polarsmurf]

without a fault these records have become nothing but a way to vent. It is sad that it falls that way, the pieces never line up. Once again back in a circle.

Stress
Anxiety
Lack of time for self
lack of time to care for anything
lack of time to give to people
i am depressed? i am numb?

i've had anxiety attacks over starting a new industry career. feels like a big fuck up. feels like i keep fucking up everywhere i go. i cant hold onto success. i sabotage myself.

really struggling with my feelings and emotions

no friends anymore except ara, he's far
i dont talk to anyone really, not much energy to do so

too tired to finish this