weakness
if anything has ever been a weakness for me it has been women.
i try and fight it, i have been alone and can accept it, yet i fall for the wrong person all the time. whenever i feel i have a match it flounders and fails and i go into a downward spiral and makes me want to kil myself.
i seek acceptance and rarely receive it no matter how i try, with women , with art, with friendships.
its not easy for me to be the way i am. but i deal with it.
i resent others who in my mind have it easier.
im tired of grad school, it doesnt seem to even be about the art. apparently if 2 ppl make the same piece of art, yet one can describe an talk about it more than the other, than that person is better
i want to drop out, but ive spent time and lots of money being here so i feel the need to finish.
i wish i have learned more than learning the basics on a few software applications.
i try and fight it, i have been alone and can accept it, yet i fall for the wrong person all the time. whenever i feel i have a match it flounders and fails and i go into a downward spiral and makes me want to kil myself.
i seek acceptance and rarely receive it no matter how i try, with women , with art, with friendships.
its not easy for me to be the way i am. but i deal with it.
i resent others who in my mind have it easier.
im tired of grad school, it doesnt seem to even be about the art. apparently if 2 ppl make the same piece of art, yet one can describe an talk about it more than the other, than that person is better
i want to drop out, but ive spent time and lots of money being here so i feel the need to finish.
i wish i have learned more than learning the basics on a few software applications.