Another installment of Jenissa's thrilling adventures in Boyland.
So we saw each other wednesday when it snowed and it was not good. We had one of those times when we both think way too much and everything is ruined forever. So that was some good times there. Then yesterday I was having not a bad day just one of those days that could be made good by only one thing/person. I don't know. It wasn't a perticularly aweful day. Nothing significantly bad happened it was just generally blank. I could handle everything the day threw me except one thing. Not seeing him. Yeah weird. So the day itself really had nothing to do with it...what happened, the people I encountered really didn't make it bad. It was a long day I got to wake up early to get to work and I stayed a full 13 hours there. But that didn't make it bad. It was the absence of him from my day that made it what it was, which was just blank. So that night I asked him to come over. And it was just one of those times when he's just him and I'm just me and that's all there needs to be. It simply was. We managed to capture a perfect speck of time, in which we just talked about everything and nothing and everything and there didn`t need to more and there didn`t need to be less it just was. I know I`m not really making sense at all in this post and I`m probably proving my need for psychiatric help but it was just so simple. And I rarely do simply. I do big and confusing and complicated. It was a glimmer of what I should be fighting for. Why I`m fighting. I don`t know how long I can hold onto that feeling before everything gets big, confusing and complicated again but for that perfect moment I had something, something important and I don`t want to loose that feeling. So I`ll fight because that`s all can go on right now.