I'm...not ok. I can't eat without getting sick. I feel wildly uncomfortable around just about everybody. I don't feel connection anymore. My sleep...or dreams, or nightmares I should say. I dreamt last night that Gary was shot and killed.wrote screaming and kicking and crying. A few days ago, I dreamt Sean beat and raped me. Again, screaming and ( Read more... )

SO one of my long term goals is to have a baby by the time I'm 30. If doing this insurance thing works out the way I want it too, I should be able to get an apartment soon, and then I can start saving up to work with a sperm bank and be artificially inseminated sometime in the next three years. I'm not confident that I'll find "the one" in the near ( Read more... )