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[poisonousxrose]

Yeah so I realized today is day 2 of mine and Alex's "break" and well I think I'm handeling it pretty damn well. Yeah I might be bitchy and snappy at people like today at lunch with Anthony but uhh.. that's all good. It's all apart of life's daily stress ladies and gentlemen and you kno what I realized something. If he really REALLY does love me.... he'll come back for sure and yeah I have faith that he will cause pshh who does love the Ebby I mean come on now lmfao!. totalling Ebb-ing with you peeps. So yeah... it's pretty cool for now I think I needed this break also cause well I don't know I guess I need time for myself a little but I think I'm done with that cause I had a lot of time to think since I have no life and sit in my room all day doing absolutely nothing. Wait no I lied... I was dying sorta haha spitting up blood isn't exactly doing nothing. Sooo uhh anywayyyyyy.... so yeah I can seriously say that I am okay now. I mean I'll wait forever for him cause I'll always love the kid to death and sometimes yeah I will admit that I do get a little mopey here and there thinking about him and me and all our great memories that I hope he'll never forget but I guess we're starting off new and I guess he'll have to forget it but deep down inside I know he won't. I know the kid like a book and I know he'll come back cause I know how much he loves me haha. BUT IT'S TRUE!. He told me today when he was signing off he still loves me anndddd he also gave me a kissy!!!. He did both first!. You have no idea how happy that made me so yeah I'm going to be happy for the rest of the night haha. Haha I feel like how we were before we started going out haha it was cute and loving and crazy in love head over heals type of deal haha... I hope everything goes back to that way it was superduperifically amazing!. =D Well I'm going to go watch the rest of my Criss Angel episode that I recorded with my DVR on Dish hahahaha no tape required it records onto a hard drive in the box hahah how wicked is that?!. Yeah so anywho.. I'll talk to you peeps later.... TOODLES!. ( oh man haven't said that word in like forever and a day )

P.S. I CUT MY HAIR AND IT'S REALLY SHORT!!!!. I LOOK LIKE A FRENCH LADY WHEN IT'S STRAIGHT AND CARROT TOP WHEN IT'S CURLY!!!!. ='[ But eh... I guess I'll get used to it hahaha. ♥