Such a sad day...but so much happiness
*le sigh* So, after everything...I feel great...well, not great...but the best I can.
Last night I ended up going out with a few different people throughout the night, the last person I saw I ended up being really doped up on medication and getting rather...I wouldn't say dumb...but I seem to have lost my sense of thinking before speaking (I'm sorry..I don't know why I'm sorry...but I am haha..I don't regret anything I said though.) But it was okay...I got to lie in a feild, staring at the clouds and stars and the wind was PERFECT for my mood...I was very content last night after all was said and done. ^_^
Then this morning was hectic...got up early, cleaned the house and got ready for the funeral. Everyone was snapping at each other...so much stress....The funeral went well though...Made me happy to see some people like corri (the singer of my dads old band and my amazingly crazy friend), Greg (the old bass player), our old pastor who left due to getting cancer (first thing he said to me was "wow, you're tall...I remember baptising you!"..I rolled my eyes haha), My auntie Judy and Uncle Brian (on my moms side...which is why I was suprised to see them show up...they came in from Ontario for it :s) along with a few others. The reception was nice..though I really don't care for the new pastor. Things were pretty awkward between my aunts and my family at first....
At the cemetary things started to lighten up (odd eh?) we all cried while my dad put my grandfathers urn in the ground and then we all started making random wise cracks about burying people...it was pretty morbid of us...haha.
Afterwards my aunts, uncles and cousins all came to our place to sit and talk...we ended up going through pictures of them when they were younger which was neat. Everyone got along...it was nice. Things started getting abit bad when my dad started drinking with my uncles...they definatly had wayyy too much to drink....Oh well. I'm not even going to get into that.
Then my saviors came....Sarah showed up <3 not only did she show up and saved me from awkwardly sitting their with all my family...but she brought me roses...I pretty much died. I have NEVER had flowers given to me before...and to think that she was thoughful enough to do that, just to cheer me up...*sigh* Thank-you. We sat and talked about birthday cakes and my birthday until my wonderful boy Ty showed up to save me...We went for coffee, and tables? (haha Oh, Sarah...)...and then ended up at KP park. We wandered around, discussed breaking into the witches hut and then went frog searching. We found soooo many! and we got so close! We even got to see them croak!!!!!! It pretty much made my night...and I'm sure Sarah died over it....she was so happy haha.
I'm home now, waiting to go out again (not sure if I am, but I'm sure someone will save me). I'm so content right now due to my amazing friends...I love you guys sooo much! Between all the phone calls, visits...just everything...Thank-you. You guys are making things so much better for me.
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
Last night I ended up going out with a few different people throughout the night, the last person I saw I ended up being really doped up on medication and getting rather...I wouldn't say dumb...but I seem to have lost my sense of thinking before speaking (I'm sorry..I don't know why I'm sorry...but I am haha..I don't regret anything I said though.) But it was okay...I got to lie in a feild, staring at the clouds and stars and the wind was PERFECT for my mood...I was very content last night after all was said and done. ^_^
Then this morning was hectic...got up early, cleaned the house and got ready for the funeral. Everyone was snapping at each other...so much stress....The funeral went well though...Made me happy to see some people like corri (the singer of my dads old band and my amazingly crazy friend), Greg (the old bass player), our old pastor who left due to getting cancer (first thing he said to me was "wow, you're tall...I remember baptising you!"..I rolled my eyes haha), My auntie Judy and Uncle Brian (on my moms side...which is why I was suprised to see them show up...they came in from Ontario for it :s) along with a few others. The reception was nice..though I really don't care for the new pastor. Things were pretty awkward between my aunts and my family at first....
At the cemetary things started to lighten up (odd eh?) we all cried while my dad put my grandfathers urn in the ground and then we all started making random wise cracks about burying people...it was pretty morbid of us...haha.
Afterwards my aunts, uncles and cousins all came to our place to sit and talk...we ended up going through pictures of them when they were younger which was neat. Everyone got along...it was nice. Things started getting abit bad when my dad started drinking with my uncles...they definatly had wayyy too much to drink....Oh well. I'm not even going to get into that.
Then my saviors came....Sarah showed up <3 not only did she show up and saved me from awkwardly sitting their with all my family...but she brought me roses...I pretty much died. I have NEVER had flowers given to me before...and to think that she was thoughful enough to do that, just to cheer me up...*sigh* Thank-you. We sat and talked about birthday cakes and my birthday until my wonderful boy Ty showed up to save me...We went for coffee, and tables? (haha Oh, Sarah...)...and then ended up at KP park. We wandered around, discussed breaking into the witches hut and then went frog searching. We found soooo many! and we got so close! We even got to see them croak!!!!!! It pretty much made my night...and I'm sure Sarah died over it....she was so happy haha.
I'm home now, waiting to go out again (not sure if I am, but I'm sure someone will save me). I'm so content right now due to my amazing friends...I love you guys sooo much! Between all the phone calls, visits...just everything...Thank-you. You guys are making things so much better for me.
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3