Yay its over!
Oh thank god that first fucking speech is over, I made some mistakes and lost what I was saying, because of my nerves of course but Im just thank I didnt faint or trip on something, at least some what I said was actually informative, and I actually showed two of my paintings, that was alittle hard but it was nice getting a few compliments and a lack of negativity, except that I rushed..well I wonder why and my voice kept going because of this stupid-week long cold.
So now I can pretty much just sit back and relax my papers done, and the next speech obviously wont be as bad, I just gotta talk alot slower, I need to practice in front of actual people instead of just alone since its so different.
I cant wait until saturday and halloween, and next weekend because I have it all off, its so nice having three things to look forward to, so when ones good or if it goes bad ( gotta have that security pessamissim), ill have more to look forward to.
I was surprised to see an IM from Karl the other day, it was like woah it wasn;t *me who IMed him, I was sleeping and didnt even hear it, I liked what it said " I really do miss talking to you, I hope your taking care of yourself", but I dont like, how ok he misses talking to me, then why doesnt he put more effort into trying? I should go visit him at work, again since its been two months, and tell him in person Im sorry about his Grandfather, if that ass-hole cop loving guy wants to kick me out again hes more then welcome, ill just buy my "goods" for saturday elsewhere.
I can feel my appetite coming back really fast, food! Witches Woods will be interesting tonight with little voice, but its the last weekend so I gotta pull it off.Im only skipping saturday due to its legitimate reason. ..hell ill be a fucking blow up pumpkin if they want me to, and I have time to nap before it.
So now I can pretty much just sit back and relax my papers done, and the next speech obviously wont be as bad, I just gotta talk alot slower, I need to practice in front of actual people instead of just alone since its so different.
I cant wait until saturday and halloween, and next weekend because I have it all off, its so nice having three things to look forward to, so when ones good or if it goes bad ( gotta have that security pessamissim), ill have more to look forward to.
I was surprised to see an IM from Karl the other day, it was like woah it wasn;t *me who IMed him, I was sleeping and didnt even hear it, I liked what it said " I really do miss talking to you, I hope your taking care of yourself", but I dont like, how ok he misses talking to me, then why doesnt he put more effort into trying? I should go visit him at work, again since its been two months, and tell him in person Im sorry about his Grandfather, if that ass-hole cop loving guy wants to kick me out again hes more then welcome, ill just buy my "goods" for saturday elsewhere.
I can feel my appetite coming back really fast, food! Witches Woods will be interesting tonight with little voice, but its the last weekend so I gotta pull it off.Im only skipping saturday due to its legitimate reason. ..hell ill be a fucking blow up pumpkin if they want me to, and I have time to nap before it.