One stare can break your heart
Ahh yay the test is over, such a relief know im trying to get myself to start typin my speech for next thursday,I know if I wait it will be a n-e-v-e-r, theres no such thing to me as a little procrastination, it quickly gets BIG, plus isnt it such a relief parteing and shit when you know your homeworks done? I do, takes that guilt/stress of your back.
Im looking forward to carving pumpkins, sort of Witches Woods, that my part will go work whatever it is, and tommorow night. Friday nights are always surprises. I want to party at a college or have an awesome hotel party that'd be sweet!, to be able to make a mess and not have to clean it up,, as much as I love parteing at my apartment im starting to need a break again, because it seems like all the mornings that I can sleep in is turning into waking up and having to clean alot,and its not summer anymore I actually have to do school work,well I mean its not like I HAVE TO, like some "demon" is telling me to, but it gets disgusting to the point where simply sitting frusterates me, like yesterday so I went into a cleaning rampage and oh it smelt so pretty, god I dont know what id do without my nose, some people take a sense of smell for so much granted, its nice to know it will still smell good when I go home to, rather then sweat and booze, , thats what I love about cleaning on week nights, it lasts more then an hour, and tonight ill be at Witches Woods,so it will at least get another day in Witches Woods tends to help with that.
I think i doing good with living in the present moment right now, taking one bite at a time, rather then obsessing over whats GONNA happen, I just gotta wait, but right now I gotta do this. I just have been getting to biggest urges to hug someone, like when you get cravings for food, it doesnt have to be a specfic person, but not a stranger like friends or family...I would hug myself but i dont see the point, theres no deserving of it, its not like I have this huge accomplishment that happened.
Im looking forward to carving pumpkins, sort of Witches Woods, that my part will go work whatever it is, and tommorow night. Friday nights are always surprises. I want to party at a college or have an awesome hotel party that'd be sweet!, to be able to make a mess and not have to clean it up,, as much as I love parteing at my apartment im starting to need a break again, because it seems like all the mornings that I can sleep in is turning into waking up and having to clean alot,and its not summer anymore I actually have to do school work,well I mean its not like I HAVE TO, like some "demon" is telling me to, but it gets disgusting to the point where simply sitting frusterates me, like yesterday so I went into a cleaning rampage and oh it smelt so pretty, god I dont know what id do without my nose, some people take a sense of smell for so much granted, its nice to know it will still smell good when I go home to, rather then sweat and booze, , thats what I love about cleaning on week nights, it lasts more then an hour, and tonight ill be at Witches Woods,so it will at least get another day in Witches Woods tends to help with that.
I think i doing good with living in the present moment right now, taking one bite at a time, rather then obsessing over whats GONNA happen, I just gotta wait, but right now I gotta do this. I just have been getting to biggest urges to hug someone, like when you get cravings for food, it doesnt have to be a specfic person, but not a stranger like friends or family...I would hug myself but i dont see the point, theres no deserving of it, its not like I have this huge accomplishment that happened.