barbie and ken
already i like this boy too much, and the irony is that he thinks he likes me more than i like him. i hinted that maybe im just better at hiding it. i was jokin around at dinner the other night and lip synced "olive juice" to him and the whole point is that it looks like "i love you" but i didnt mean it to be serious, and i really thought he knew the joke, since he seems to know almost all my jokes, or i his. he didnt, and was like "wait what did u just say" omg it was soo cute! it wasnt a test, but it kinda showed me an answer. i went on his myspace today cuz i was gonna leave him a comment, and now his page says "in a relationship"... to recirocate, i changed mine also. its like im waitin for him to make the first move, cuz i dont wanna be wrong, or fall, but one of these days im gonna have to admit that i already have fallen. its not that i dont want to, but my defenses are still up. something kinda bad happened the other day, and i guess he thought id leave him bcuz of it. im really fallin for him, i couldnt leave him or something like that, and it actually kinda hurt me that he offered to understand if i did choose that. i know he was just tryin to do the right thing. its only been 3 weeks, but im in deep already. i just wanted a place to put a few quotes from the aim convo about things the other day that really meant something to me, and it'll only make sense to me, which is fine.
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:26:36 PM): u know what really affected me when we talked this morning
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:26:48 PM): when u said "if you dont ever wanna talk to me again, i understand"
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:27:47 PM): i was thinkin about that a lot today, and i guess if i had to tell you what you told me, i woulda said something like that too, but i wouldnt have wanted to say it
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:28:21 PM): i hope u dont think im shallow and that i actually would have wanted you out of my life like that
Agg Styles (7:29:38 PM): i was crying when i was talking to you, cause i felt like for one I find a girl that i see alot of hope in, and i fucked it up... i just thought giving you an opportunity to leave me was the responsible thing to say
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:30:55 PM): u know what, i seriously thought u were gonna tell me there was something worse wrong w/ you, like u were gonna die from something, i was actually releaved for a split second that it was just that
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:31:18 PM): that sounds dumb, but u were settin it up like it was something really really bad, and it is kinda bad, but that woulda been worse to me
Agg Styles (7:31:58 PM): i really feel like saying olive juice
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:32:42 PM): :-*
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:33:03 PM): dont say it online... it would never mean as much as in person
Agg Styles (7:33:30 PM): of course, but ive never met a girl like you before
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:33:59 PM): just promise me a couple things
Agg Styles (7:34:13 PM): yes
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:35:15 PM): that you wont lie to me or cheat on me, and if you ever dont wanna be with me, tell me, cuz thats what leads to lying and cheating... when u dont wanna be w/ someone or just wanna be w/ someone else but dont know how to tell them.... ok?
Agg Styles (7:36:38 PM): of course... but this feeling in my heart, ive never had before... and i feel like for the first time, your worth fighting for, crying for...everything
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:41:43 PM): i really like you... i guess its me w/ my defenses up tryin not to fall just yet too much out of fear that its too soon to know if you're real, but i really like you, and i want you to know that i promise all of what i said to you also
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:42:21 PM): i mean, if i didnt, i wouldnt be here right? i hope that means a lot
Agg Styles (7:43:13 PM): yeah, i know i like you more right now...but thats cool... relationships just need time
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:43:26 PM): or maybe i just hide it better
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:44:03 PM): :-*
Agg Styles (7:44:08 PM): <3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:44:11 PM): <3
Agg Styles (7:45:34 PM): you would have laughed if you saw me in bed when i got home last night...
Agg Styles (7:46:48 PM): i was all teary eyed praying out loud to god..."I know I have something god, but please kristen is the sweetest thing, and she doesnt not diserve this...if shes good.... i will go to church"
Agg Styles (7:47:00 PM): i was all barganing with god... how lame...ha
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:48:05 PM): ur so cool... thats not lame at all <3 :-) <3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:48:54 PM): u make me really happy
Agg Styles (7:49:12 PM): you make me more happy X3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:50:03 PM): u wanna see my beach 2nite? ...well... one of them anyways
Agg Styles (7:50:11 PM): yes
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:50:29 PM): then we can be lame and rent another movie if u want :-)
Agg Styles (7:50:58 PM): anything you want babe
Agg Styles (7:51:12 PM): someday i will take you to the stars
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:26:36 PM): u know what really affected me when we talked this morning
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:26:48 PM): when u said "if you dont ever wanna talk to me again, i understand"
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:27:47 PM): i was thinkin about that a lot today, and i guess if i had to tell you what you told me, i woulda said something like that too, but i wouldnt have wanted to say it
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:28:21 PM): i hope u dont think im shallow and that i actually would have wanted you out of my life like that
Agg Styles (7:29:38 PM): i was crying when i was talking to you, cause i felt like for one I find a girl that i see alot of hope in, and i fucked it up... i just thought giving you an opportunity to leave me was the responsible thing to say
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:30:55 PM): u know what, i seriously thought u were gonna tell me there was something worse wrong w/ you, like u were gonna die from something, i was actually releaved for a split second that it was just that
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:31:18 PM): that sounds dumb, but u were settin it up like it was something really really bad, and it is kinda bad, but that woulda been worse to me
Agg Styles (7:31:58 PM): i really feel like saying olive juice
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:32:42 PM): :-*
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:33:03 PM): dont say it online... it would never mean as much as in person
Agg Styles (7:33:30 PM): of course, but ive never met a girl like you before
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:33:59 PM): just promise me a couple things
Agg Styles (7:34:13 PM): yes
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:35:15 PM): that you wont lie to me or cheat on me, and if you ever dont wanna be with me, tell me, cuz thats what leads to lying and cheating... when u dont wanna be w/ someone or just wanna be w/ someone else but dont know how to tell them.... ok?
Agg Styles (7:36:38 PM): of course... but this feeling in my heart, ive never had before... and i feel like for the first time, your worth fighting for, crying for...everything
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:41:43 PM): i really like you... i guess its me w/ my defenses up tryin not to fall just yet too much out of fear that its too soon to know if you're real, but i really like you, and i want you to know that i promise all of what i said to you also
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:42:21 PM): i mean, if i didnt, i wouldnt be here right? i hope that means a lot
Agg Styles (7:43:13 PM): yeah, i know i like you more right now...but thats cool... relationships just need time
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:43:26 PM): or maybe i just hide it better
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:44:03 PM): :-*
Agg Styles (7:44:08 PM): <3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:44:11 PM): <3
Agg Styles (7:45:34 PM): you would have laughed if you saw me in bed when i got home last night...
Agg Styles (7:46:48 PM): i was all teary eyed praying out loud to god..."I know I have something god, but please kristen is the sweetest thing, and she doesnt not diserve this...if shes good.... i will go to church"
Agg Styles (7:47:00 PM): i was all barganing with god... how lame...ha
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:48:05 PM): ur so cool... thats not lame at all <3 :-) <3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:48:54 PM): u make me really happy
Agg Styles (7:49:12 PM): you make me more happy X3
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:50:03 PM): u wanna see my beach 2nite? ...well... one of them anyways
Agg Styles (7:50:11 PM): yes
LiLCaLiHoTTie143 (7:50:29 PM): then we can be lame and rent another movie if u want :-)
Agg Styles (7:50:58 PM): anything you want babe
Agg Styles (7:51:12 PM): someday i will take you to the stars