I'm over Thanksgiving
What’s with the whole “let’s not tell Dani what’s going on” cause OMG I love surpirese so much! This is the second time someone has known she’s in town and not told me. WTF! I hate that my grandmother invited her and that I have to put on a ‘brave face’. I don’t understand this. The more I am made to sit and take it…the more I get pissed off. Of course my brothers are happy. My grandmother is on her Christian soap box. I was actually happy about today… the first time that I can remember, my holiday wasn’t going to be dramatic. Like it or not, she brings drama everywhere she goes. One time, one f-ing time I’d like to have a holiday without her and her drama. Is that too much to ask? Why am I looked at as the bitch…heartless as my brother Neal now nicknamed me… when all I want is to have a peaceful dinner with my family? Now I have to walk on eggshells all day to make sure I don’t “upset her”. I make one comment about her not drinking, cause last time I checked medication and alcohol don’t go together, and I get a dirty look. WTF! People come on! Guess what folks I’ve stopped caring what’s right to say around her… I’ve stopped hiding behind my desire to have a mom… dammit I see the truth now. Why is everyone ignoring the problem?! Hell I feel like the one with the mental imbalance. I didn’t leave, she did. I didn’t pick a 24-year-old asswipe over my children, she did. I didn’t give up and just walk away! I’m pissed and it seems no one else is pissed with me. They just want to have a fake ass family dinner. FYI: you’d have to be a family first to have a ‘family dinner’.
I was going to write about what I am thankful for... can't see anything now. No, wait, I'm thankful that I don't have to be here next year. I've always wanted to be in NYC for Thanksgiving, I may just do that next year. If they want her here, they can have her. I'm through with caring what happens to her. I'm through with caring what others think. I'm through with caring about what happens to her! She'll be 40 in January. She's had all of my life...fuck it if I am being selfish. I'm done!
I was going to write about what I am thankful for... can't see anything now. No, wait, I'm thankful that I don't have to be here next year. I've always wanted to be in NYC for Thanksgiving, I may just do that next year. If they want her here, they can have her. I'm through with caring what happens to her. I'm through with caring what others think. I'm through with caring about what happens to her! She'll be 40 in January. She's had all of my life...fuck it if I am being selfish. I'm done!